After walking the walk with the Royal Princess Kitty Katt--------give them
the opportunity to leave on their own. Don't rush them on their journey.
You would not want to be rushed on yours. If you know in your heart that
you would want to be helped along if your were in their paws consider it.
Or if they flat tell you it is time and they need or want help.
The awful thing is you have to be so much stronger to do this. With Kitty I
have no doubt that I did right letting her leave on her own.
Blessings to you.
If you have men who will
exclude any of God's creatures
from the shelter of
compassion and pity, you will have men who
will deal likewise with
their fellow man.
St.
Francis
----- Original Message -----
From: "Nina" <[EMAIL PROTECTED]>
To: <[email protected]>; "Carol Robinson"
<[EMAIL PROTECTED]>
Sent: Tuesday, October 10, 2006 2:52 PM
Subject: Spencer and the difficulty of final decisions
Belinda,
Thank you so much for your suggestions. You're right, I don't know what's
going on with him exactly. Who knows, it could be Pancreatitis. I'm in
that terrible position of wondering, 'if only'. I was stewing in that
feeling all day yesterday. It's making me wonder if my resistance to all
the suggested testing was misguided. I'm at that terrible point were I
know we're just about out of time, where there's still life, and therefore
still hope, but hope is dwindling rapidly. As I told you, I had the
housecall vet on the phone this morning. He even had a cancellation and
could have come this afternoon. I hung up without making an appointment.
Something is holding me back from making that final decision. I tend to
think, when I feel this way, that perhaps there's a miracle just waiting,
if only I could figure out what to do to nudge it along. Before I began
this post, I was thinking maybe I could call the housecall vet back and
have him come draw blood for more tests. Unfortunately, Spencer's so
emaciated at this point, I doubt his veins would support a blood draw. I
have a call into my AC... I'm wondering if perhaps my hesitation to
relieve Spencer of his practically useless body has more to do with
allowing death to take it's natural course. Maybe the light in his eyes
has more to do with him being glad for the opportunity to pass on his own
then what I was hopefully interpreting yesterday as an indication of
possible recovery. I know everyone on the list knows, (and of course
Hideyo has just gone through it with her little Tsubomi), just how hard it
is to watch and wait and comfort and cry through that process. I've
always believed that euthanasia is a gift of love, that if it is done for
the animal and not for our own convenience, or even to ease our own
suffering, then it is the right thing to do. In Spencer's case, I'm not
getting any of the signals that normally tell me this is what he wants...
So, I continue to wait and watch and support and try to be brave through
my tears.
Nina
Belinda wrote:
Steriods will help any kind of inflammation not just inflammation from
cancer. They also help many other conditions.
