Oh, Nina! I wish I had the words to express my thoughts more poetically than, "I know exactly how you feel!" But it's just as simple as that, I guess...You were there for me when my special guy, Fuss-fuss passed away...and Spence sounds like he was to you what Fuss was to me. You're right, they're all hard...but there are a few that are particularly hard. It's helped me to keep in mind that journeys work both ways...not everyone is placed in our own lives for our own benefit...we, too, get placed in others' lives for the other person's or animal's benefit. For some of my cats, I feel as though I'm simply on the periphery of their journey...a blip on their radar, so-to- speak! Which is fine by me as I understand we're all busy trying to figure out our own destinies...and if I can make theirs that much more enjoyable (or entertaining as the case often is), so be it! :) But then there are those cats whose journey seems to be intertwined with mine for a brief period of tim e, and I am honored that they are here to teach me...likewise, it hurts the most when it's time for them to leave as I feel we are a part of each other. :( Now, I'm not saying that one relationship is better or more important than the other as we're all brought together for one reason or another...but some of these guys seem to "talk" to you on a different level and you're never really the same again!
Please know that you are in my thoughts and let me know if there's anything I can do!! Jen **************************************************** "But if you tame me, then we shall need each other. To me, you will be unique in all the world. To you, I shall be unique in all the world; You become responsible, forever, for what you have tamed..." --Antoine de Saint-Exupéry "If you talk to the animals they will talk with you and you will know each other. If you do not talk to them you will not know them, and what you do not know you will fear. What one fears one destroys." -- Chief Dan George "The flame that burns twice as bright burns half as long..." --Blade Runner ----- Original Message ----- From: Nina <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> Date: Thursday, October 12, 2006 11:29 am Subject: Please add Spencer to the CLS To: [email protected] > Hi Belinda and All, > I'm so sad and numb this morning. So completely worn out, I know > you > all understand how I'm feeling. Spencer had been so weak > yesterday, but > still so attentive and loving, what an incredible spirit this boy > has. > The vet was late, (I'm so glad he was), and I had been laying next > to > Spencer on our bed, keeping him company while we waited. He > lifted his > head and tried to move, but he just couldn't get his once > magnificent > body to work. I decided to bring him out front. He used to love > going > out with his dogs every morning to get the paper and I thought he > might > enjoy going out one more time. I was right. Unbelievably, he > rallied > and was actually able to stumble to his favorite spot under my > Jeep > parked in the driveway. He even drank from the feral's water > bowl. > I couldn't stand seeing him on the uncomfortable cement any longer > and > put him on his bed and we sat and quietly watched the neighborhood > comings and goings from the front steps. > > I had just brought him back inside when I saw my vet approaching > up the > front walk. Heaven help me, but I wanted to scream, NO! NOT YET! > Of > course, it was time to finally say goodbye. > > Do you still do tributes with their pictures? I'm going to send > you his > picture off-list to include in case you do. Bless it, this was a > hard > one, (but then I guess there just aren't any easy ones, are there?). > > I want to express my gratitude once again to this incredible list > of > caring people. I went through such contortions dealing with > Spencer's > illness and decline. I don't know how I would have coped without > your > support and prayers. > Much love as always, > Nina > >
