Cassandra,they are absolutley beautiful angels
C & J <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: Thank you all so much for your
thoughts and prayers. Knowing there are people out there who truly understand
and care without having ever met myself or my babies means so much to me. This
is a link to a picture I made the first time Tomi was sick, and have since had
printed and framed (Tomi is on the left, Kisa on the right):
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v43/Fyrwulf/FirstSpacetrip5.jpg . Now that
they are both gone, I guess it is even more fitting.
Here is another pic that I like of them:
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v43/Fyrwulf/Kissing.jpg
Today is still pretty tough for me. I still can hear Tomi's cries at the
end, and it is breaking my heart. Everytime I think of it, I just feel like
punching something. I felt so useless and terrified for him.
I realize I lost my best friend after my husband yesterday. Even if we were
to get another kitten or two one day, I don't think i'll ever have as close a
bond again as I did with Tomi. I just wish he could have stayed for longer
than the 2.5 years I had with him. My house feels so empty now. I can no
longer give my little boy a good long hug when I feel upset.
Cassandra
----- Original Message -----
From: C & J
To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org
Sent: Sunday, June 24, 2007 3:05 PM
Subject: Tomi has joined Kisa and Koda
I've just lost my closest friend other than my husband. Tomi and I have had
a special bond ever since my husband brought him home. My husband was out
walking the dog by the river in October of 2004, on a cold and rainy day.
There was a kitten crying in the trees, cold and wet, and my husband couldn't
just leave him there. I wasn't impressed at first, since we already had 4
cats, but Tomi quickly won me over. I've had a very close bond with him ever
since.
He was very timid at first, hiding whenever there was a strange noise or
person, we often wondered how my husband was able to catch him to bring him
home. His tail had been broken at the end at one time too, it sort of looked
like a question mark when it was straight up. Tomi quickly came around though
and trusted us, though he still always hid when any strangers came to the house.
Tomi was the type of loving boy that always acknowledged your presence when
you touched him or talked to him...or even looked at him sometimes. He never
showed any signs of annoyance when I gave him too many hugs/kisses, and never
got angry.
3.5 months ago when I found out he was anemic and had FeLV, I was devastated.
I watched him slowly decline for nearly 2 months until he crashed and I was
sure he would die. Amazingly he bounced back and gave me another good 8 weeks
with him. Except during this time I had to watch Koda and Kisa (Tomi's close
buddy) get sick and die, so I didn't get to spend as much time with my Tomi as
I would have liked.
Then just a few days after Kisa died on June 12, Tomi got sick and crashed
again with the anemia. He was having a hard time breathing, and again he
bounced back. Last week he had a huge appetite, eating everything I gave him,
and drank lots of water. Yesterday, he started to crash again.
Today, he was eating a little bit of liver I gave him and still drinking, but
his breathing was becoming more labored. Then around noon, he began panting,
and I watched him die in a way that will haunt me forever. He was so scared
and crying because he couldn't catch his breath. This is absolutely the worse
thing i've ever experienced.
A huge part of the happiness in my life is now gone. I guess i'll just
wander around like a zombie for awhile, and maybe the pain will eventually turn
to numbness.
Thank you all for the support you've given me through all of this. It looks
like this ordeal that has been going on nonstop since March 9 is now over.
Cassandra
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