Hello All:
I'm going to make this somewhat brief as I've had my last two messages
NOT post..nor had I received any group messages until about 5 minutes
ago..
My remaining cat ( Magellin.. nee Jelly ) who is my little love...
much like Amani's Zander. Stopped eating
a week and one half ago... Hospitalized for two days and vet said very
bad URI and possible lungworm
This was the vet the shelter uses and they often don't look to hard
first time out to save the shelter $$... Long Story short ( just as
matters went with my other little guy) I had to spend the money anyway
to get an accurate DX... He has a tumor ( likely lymphoma) just
forward of his heart... a WBC of 186000 and rapidly dropping HCT ( 5
weeks earlier I had an extensive wellness exam on him and he was FINE...
top of the chart HCT... just a couple of other glitches...
He really HATES being force fed and I don't know I am doing him any
favors prolonging his life this way as it is not likely that he is going
to begin to eat again on his own if it is the tumor and the Virus that
are causing the
loss of appetite...OR making it difficult for him TO eat ( though he
does seem to do OK with the Pica that alerted me to the fact that he
might be anemic... he was eating cat litter and licking the cement
powder off the laundry room floor)....
I force fed him for a week in hopes that he might begin to eat again on
his own.... He's on Mirtazapine, Prednisolone, Winstrol and Doxy right
now but It's literally killing me to have my little boy just unable to
play or eat or enjoy being petted... All the best of what we had is in
abeyance.... I don't want him to starve to death but if I keep him
alive by force feeding him I could just be setting him up for death by
another means ( he is clearly having difficulty breathing...using
accessory muscles... only occassionally lying on his side
comfortably)..... He does not appear to be in abject pain so I am
reluctant to put him down but it is SO trying for me particularly in he
wake of losing my other little guy only a couple of months ago after
nearly a year of trying to get him well...... And, once again, there
is the damn matter of financial limitations. If there were a "cure"
and it cost me a few thousand I would spend the money.. but with a FeLV
cat it is highly questionable if thousands spent could even guarantee a
few more months.... Currently I am force feeding him a few oz's a day
of AD with a calorie supplement paste mixed in... Just enough to keep
him from starving and giving him some fluid... just in case buying him a
few extra days witnesses any kind of change for the positive with the
meds he's getting..... I'm trying NOT to give in to putting him
down now to save ME the heartache of watching another cat die over a
matter of months... Living alone and having no one to talk to about
this that shares my feelings for this guy and won't get VERY tired of
hearing about it makes it that much more difficult..... I'm getting
VERY depressed and closure could at least leave me having only grief to
deal with...which is, frankly, a LOT easier than the daily.... " is he
doing better"? " maybe a miracle will occur"... or putting him on my
chest only to have him be so uncomfortable there that he immediately
leaves.... That's the hardest part.... He's here physically but I no
longer have MY Jelly... Thanks for listening... any suggestions
welcome...
Bob
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