Well after doing the eyedrops twice, the ointments and the clavamox... no
eating. I took cc back to emergency and had her put to sleep. Even the times
I did have her securely wrapped and calm, she cried so pitifully when I gave
her the med.s. It was after the med.s that she would drool so much. She was
breathing poorly. Sleeping so heavily I kept checking to see if she was
still alive. The other eye was starting to look bad as well. Her nose was
bloody from sneezing I suppose. I just held her for a while... she was
basically not responsive to anything except fear when I tried to medicate.
The vet had said we were going to have to consider force-feeding fairly
soon. I had tried just touching my finger in food and touching it to her
mouth, holding it under her nose, etc... She would not have liked that
either.
And I just spent a lot of time holding her and talking to her, and
watching her, and I realized I couldn't put her through this misery for
however long it was going to take.
So I took her back to emergency and we sent her to the bridge close to
midnight last night. The vet said the uri/herpes was 'severe' and would be
hard to overcome for a cat with a 'normal' immune system. And agreed that
the stress factor was working against us bigtime with CC being so aversive
to anything we tried to do to make her better. And of course, we were
looking at not knowing how much 'good time' there would be if she did pull
through. So there was no way of determining if the 'good time' cc had left
would outweigh the trauma it would take to get her back to that point. In
addition, she had some infection going on in her mouth already. We'd been
considering whether or not to do a dental.... So when/if she got better from
this we were going to have to deal with that situation.
So I let her go. She was 5. I'm starting to know how some of you feel
with the multiple losses. ;)
It's so
hard.
Plus financially. I never really consider cost with mine. (so my credit
cards are maxed out. lol) I'd mortgage the house if it
meant there was a way to make her better and have her not have to go
through this... but I don't know how you guys with so many do it. With
an average of 10.... I can't keep up with the money...
Oh well, I figure I get the sick ones because God knows there aren't many
people who'd put the money and effort in to helping them. CC tested positive
when I found her at about 8-10 weeks. So I guess to make it to 5 was decent.
Especially considering the URI, pneumonia, herpes she went through and
recovered from at about 8 months.
From being on the list, I'd already decided if CC came down with anemia,
lymphoma, those typical things we see here, that I wouldn't put her through
a lot trying to save her since she hated being treated so much. It was just
hard to let her go for a damn URI that I caused by taking her to the vet to
begin with. And also, being on the list so long I was prepared that it could
happen so quickly... but I realize now you can't be prepared for it to
happen so quickly...
Sad time here... Thank you all for your help and kind words through this.
tonya
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