Dear Michelle You are having such an awful time, my heart goes out to you and Simon and your partner. But at least you know (and will always know) one thing for sure: you are giving Simon the most precious thing of all, and at the time he needs it most. No one could love and care for Simon more, or show that love and care more more clearly through action, than you. When the time comes he will not be on his own, and he will know that. Thinking of you and sending much love and many prayers your and Simon's way, take care, Kerry
-----Original Message----- From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of [EMAIL PROTECTED] Sent: Monday, January 10, 2005 7:53 AM To: [email protected] Subject: Simon update I really thought Simon would be gone by now. But all through the night he was very purry and cuddly, though very weak. he got up and walked to use the litter box twice, but was wobbly and would lay down again right outside it each time and I would bring him back to bed. He had had no food since he ate a few bites in the morning yesterday. I had decided not to syringe him anymore because it seemed to make him feel awful the day before, but I also thought he would be gone by now. I eventually gave him another shot of dexamethasone at about 6:30 am this morning, hoping it might make him eat. I have given him a lot of steroids, probably way too much, but I am looking at this as hospice care and long-term effects do not seem to matter much. The dex made him stronger, as he can walk without wobbling at all now, and he is drinking on his own because it made him thirsty. He also sniffed at food but would not eat. So I syringed him 4 cc's of food (very little) to see if it might help him. He held it down fine, but seems very upset. I am not sure what to do about food-- just let him go without any? I thought if he actually has a few days left he should get some in him for strength, but I don't know. I am exhausted. I stayed up the entire night petting and watching him. When my partner got up this morning I asked him to watch him and slept for 1.5 hours. I am not sure how anyone could say that doing this is for my own sake, as in many ways I think it would be easier to euthanize him. I just can't do it while he is still purring and able to walk and not panting or crying. Michelle This email and any files transmitted with it are confidential and intended solely for the use of the individual or entity to whom they are addressed. If you have received this email in error please notify the system manager. This message contains confidential information and is intended only for the individual named. If you are not the named addressee you should not disseminate, distribute or copy this e-mail.
