I really thought Simon would be gone by now. But all through the night he was
very purry and cuddly, though very weak. he got up and walked to use the
litter box twice, but was wobbly and would lay down again right outside it each
time and I would bring him back to bed. He had had no food since he ate a few
bites in the morning yesterday. I had decided not to syringe him anymore
because it seemed to make him feel awful the day before, but I also thought he
would
be gone by now. I eventually gave him another shot of dexamethasone at about
6:30 am this morning, hoping it might make him eat. I have given him a lot
of steroids, probably way too much, but I am looking at this as hospice care
and long-term effects do not seem to matter much. The dex made him stronger,
as
he can walk without wobbling at all now, and he is drinking on his own
because it made him thirsty. He also sniffed at food but would not eat. So I
syringed him 4 cc's of food (very little) to see if it might help him. He held
it
down fine, but seems very upset. I am not sure what to do about food-- just
let him go without any? I thought if he actually has a few days left he should
get some in him for strength, but I don't know. I am exhausted. I stayed up
the entire night petting and watching him. When my partner got up this morning
I asked him to watch him and slept for 1.5 hours. I am not sure how anyone
could say that doing this is for my own sake, as in many ways I think it would
be
easier to euthanize him. I just can't do it while he is still purring and
able to walk and not panting or crying.
Michelle
