Empty space
Theres an empty space
inside my head
the space grows and grows
it keeps on growing and I
want to be dead
feeling numb cold and stone
all at the same time
why wont nothing fill me
why am I like an empty vase
meant to hold liquid
glistening in the sun
sparkling under the gaze of eyes
but nothing happens inside of me
Afraid of disappointment
afraid I will fall again
but even that fear fades away
what is left behind
nothing as I stare into my eyes
they held more once
I remember dimly
life and joy and fantasy
Im hiding inside books once more
shut the doors and lock the walls
Im crawling back into unreal
Why
you tell me
Lifes stretched in front of me
vast landscape that holds no gain
no not true I lied
there are things ahead yes
but they have me frozen in cold
so cold fear
I cant allow that near me
I wont have it
so what do I do
I shove it as far away as possible
trying to forget
loathing people around
with plumb faces filled with smiles
I hate them yet I dont think
hate is the right word
Why invest emotions
when they are but to get crushed
never expect something from others
I learned it I still learn
a few exceptions blink
like lonely stars
but they cannot make up
although they should
the empty space is all I have
and there are days
when I wish myself
seperated from my head
Sounds so silly so unreal
but sometimes I get excited
at the thought of being dead.
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