> I think they must have very > strong spirits to take on such great difficulties. I think living on the > earth is being in hell because we are separated from the knowledge of our > true nature (which I believe is divine and beautiful) and from the knowledge > of our oneness with all creation.
Heaven and Hell are states of mind. It is all down to choice of thoughts. Or our beliefs if you like. I certainly know that for me all that brought into light from that awful darkness was the change in my thought. (with an lot of help of course). When I think back, there is a definate demarcation before and after. Before is dark and swirling and after is light and free. > The > only thing we can be absolutely sure about on earth, outside of our own > thoughts and behavior, is that nothing on earth will last forever and > everything will change. One of the religions I grew up with believes that Heaven will be here on earth. That all pain will cease, that wild animals will be tame, that there will be on natral disasters etc. Never mind the fact that the sun will burn out etc one day! Oh and of the 3 religions I grew up, all believed that evolution eas a wicked lie anfd that fossils etc were put there by Stan to trick us. > I always remember the catholic priest on Ash > Wednesday crossing my head with ashes while saying "thou art dust and unto > dust thou shalt return" - grim but true. Not really true. our bodies will return to dust. we will not because we ner were dust. > I am really struggling now with > all of this - that I can't control the future - that disaster could strike > at any moment - it's very depressing. I'm not sure why I'm in this mental > state. Iyt's called a mid life crisis! No I am not being rude! It is very common. We become of our own moratlity if a way we never have before. I have conflicting feelimngs about it all too. I used to hate life and longed to leave it. Now I love life and want to have lots morew of it. ageing is the pits and death even worse fromt he purely physical point of view. I went to my friend Joy's funeral on monday. I stared quite while at her coffin, imaginign her body just lying there and thinking how awful it was. yet the other part of me was happy and knew she was there watching, feeling sad because her daughter was so distraught, and knwoing that she herself was free and more alive than any of us. > I ask myself the question "What can I control?" and the only answer > I find is that the only things I can totally control are my thoughts and my > actions in this present moment. and that is what we are supposed to learn, i think. We reallt cannot control others or events. So much of our pain is casued by trying to control others. by trying to force our meaning structures onto others. war, war, war. Until we all learn otherwise. Many fool themesleves that they are being oh so good and 'holy' by trying to force their religion onto others when alk they are doing is trying to get others to think as they do. I used to very confused by the Happy Clappies and their conviction . Till i understood about meaning structures and ideas. Of course they appear happy and in fact because they have convinced themselves of their absolute rightness. much the same as I am in the manic phase of my illness. The same feelings were engenderd at the Nuremburg Rallies and such like. Marion-you are doing okay and feeling the way you do is normal. many people when struck with this desperately look for something to hold it all together instead of just going with it and becoming more humand and strong. Love you for that. bw colin > > > Marian > Vienna -- bw colin DAK,BRO GC, 950i, 940,860,864,890, 260,Silver 830,860, 580 and 270, Passap 6000, Duo80. [EMAIL PROTECTED] http://www.tantra-apso.com
