i've sent this so many times already!!!! oh mercury retrograde: get off my
hair! fortunately mercury goes direct again today.
so here i go again. cut & paste. [no, that's not a joni mitchell album].
a couple of days ago i wrote:
hello my little ones!!!!
what a time this has been. here i am, back in torrid and oppressive buenos
aires, argentina after the most glorious visit in vancouver, BC, CANADA.
oh canada, what can i say about you that hasn't been said before. i must
admit that i was slightly disappointed when i realized that my first visit
to canada would take place in its mildest city. i was and still am hungry
for the subzero thing. yet, my dear father jack frost -- also known as
saturn -- rose to the occasion and gave us unseasonably cold weather and two
snow days, much to the Vancouverites' chagrin [but hell, I deserved it].
come all ye fair and tender jmdl girls: what on earth are ya waiting for? up
in vancouver there's a guy who's single, handsome, warm and loving. he's not
only the most marvelous cook but he is also STRAIGHT! come on now and give
mr. stephen epstein a call. my heart breaks to think that such a perfect
catch should remain undiscovered. besides, the view from his apartment is
breathtaking. and pay no heed when he says that his salmon is overdone cause
it ain't!
stephen received me in one of the toughest times in my life. call it good
vibes, call it shamanism, stephen's ability to make a person feel utterly at
ease worked wonders. in less than a week i was getting up at practically the
crack of dawn, going to bed WAY BEFORE the crack of dawn and, most
importantly, giving up an 18-year addiction to sleeping pills!!!!!! quitting
my dear red ones and blue ones was one of my biggest goals for this year,
and i thought it would take months of therapy just to muster the courage.
however, being in the company of a loving friend in a wonderful environment
did it for me. so here i am, and for all i know i've kicked it!
among the fabulous gifts that i received in vancouver was meeting
stuff-of-legend steve dulson and beautiful michelle, and kate bennet, the
singer songwriter with the stunning looks. leave it to a bunch of jmdlers to
find one another in a crowded hotel lobby on the eve of a folk music
convention! it took about 20 seconds to see the special jonifreak gleam in
our eyes. i wish i had been able to hear kate's concert on saturday night,
but i was under the effects of the most powerful pot on earth. hear me now:
when a vancouverite tells you that you must take one and only one toke, pay
attention: they're not bragging as i thought. four innocent tokes put me out
like a light! i was high for ... TWENTY F_ING HOURS!!!!! not since the days
of acid, believe me...
my life as a single man has just begun. it is exhilarating and sad,
unbelievably slow and full of vertigo, lonely and loud. every day i take a
little step forward. i also cry. it is good to know that our decisions have
meaning: i am gradually rediscovering the ability to have faith in what i
can't see. i am also trying to be practical and above all patient. i still
have to burn completely down to mere ashes before i can rise from them. it
is a form of death. no one looks forward to death, only to relief. however,
i am here. in due course, i'll be rejoicing in my new incarnation.
love,
wallyK
