and then you suddenly remember you have some very close friends here who
love you and miss your crazy posts when they are not forthcoming. Keep up
the spirit and thank God you have the work and we will party down in
Topsfield.
Paz
on 7/29/01 8:59 PM, Jim L'Hommedieu at [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote:
> Great post, Mags.
>
> It will come as no surprise to anyone who's been on the List for a while
> that I've been thinking about 'sorrow' lately.
>
> ("sad smile, her apology.
> Sad eyes, reaching for the door.
> This is my opening farewell."
>
>
> Ooops. Wrong poet.)
>
> When Karen left I hit that ole debilitating tailspin. It almost killed
> me. Mercifully, like the aftermath of a nuclear strike, the intense
> heat and radiation has subsided into your garden variety dust and rubble
> in the form of "sorrow". What I feel on a daily basis is what you
> alluded to Mags. Anyway, lately, Shawn Colvin has been resonating in my
> head, like her buzzing, nasal voice. Her solo piano and voice repeating
> this (paraphrased)
>
> "<<< I have this funny ache
>
> an' it's burning in my chest
>
> an' it spreads just like a fire inside my body......
>
> is it something God left out?
>
> .... in my spirit?
>
> or my flesh?
>
> Would I be saved if I were brave and had a baby?
>
>
> It was <quickly>
> never clear what would come next
> but that's the risk
> and that's the test.
>
> <moderately>
>
> And no one ever talks about
> when one might *stop and need to rest*
> Or how long you sit alone before you stop looking back
> (like you're waiting for Godot)
> before you pick your sorry ass up off the floor and
>
> ....... <jump to falsetto>
> ....... go?" <<<<<<<<<<<
>
> Shawn Colvin
> from "If I Were Brave" from her wonderful and highly recommended
> "A Few Small Repairs"
> see more at www.shawncolvin.com , naturally! But when reading lyrics,
> remember the immortal words of my fellow native of New York State's Long
> Island who observed,
>
> "There's a new band in town
> but ya can't
> get the sound
> from a story in a magazine."
>
> jeees, she does a nice job on that quote. Beside the fact that
> "next/risk/test" is a masterful triplet, she captures that hinge point
> when you've been down a long, long, long time, when you've perseverated
> enough, when you've run out of self pity. There's a weird little
> release moment when one realizes, 'yeah, my life is sad. very sad....
> but I better do the _laundry_ before it's too late today." :) It's a
> blessing of a parasite- the weekly routine.
>
>
> Lama, who's been working 57 hours/week for 5 months. (Before Marcel
> asks why anyone would do such a thing, I'll answer: one word, Marcel:
> poverty)
>
> P.S. As jmdler Bryan Thomas observed on "Radio Plastic Jennifer",
>
> 'if the shit ain't killed us
>
> we must be stronger.'
>
>
> Nice job Bryan. (He's not wholly *convinced* you understand- he's
> taking it on *faith* that "we" are stronger.)
>
>
> P.P.S.S.
> I love to write for you guys.
>
> P.P.P.S.S.S.
> As a wise sage (ME!) used to say daily,
> "Tolerance, tolerance, tolerance"
