ok i feel oddly compelled to answer every email from this list thats
come in the past 24 hours in this one email :D?
skinny indie boys. i know the girls on this list arent shallow enough. i
know that a healthy relationship relies on the fact that both people
have to find each other physically and mentally attractive. people who
say that the physical part doesnt matter are full of shit. uh. so im not
really "fat" in the "honkin" way but ive got some meat on my bones. its
just the way i am. i would feel pretty shitty if a girl completely
dissed me for that fact alone, but at the same time i wouldnt have any
fuckin respect for her at all because the last thing i need is some
kinda shallow skank like that. heh. im so blunt. if anyone is offended
by my bluntness i guess i oughta apologize. but maybe not. im also
indecisive. could you tell?
so yeah. im content with the way i am. but not all indie boys are
skinny. and not all girls are shallow im sure. but theres some goodness
in those not-skinny indie boys. ive noticed that i have to rely on charm
to get my foot in the door. and personality goes a long way
im ten times more charming than that Arnold on green acres, know what im
sayin?
is anyone else out there hopelessy romantic? it seems like my little sex
post opened up some closed doors or something. are we all in search of
hot action or something on a higher level? i used to be so intent on
finding that soulmate. a soulmate is a special girl, a girl who's just
like me, we'll share tremendous oral sex, she'll try everything she
sees. she won't be insane or hung up like most other girls and ill
worship her until it hurts, cuz she's on top of my world. lou said it
best when he said that.
so i dreampt about a soulmate for a long time, even thought i found one
once. ive since grown out of that entire fantasy. although i like to
hang onto it, i question its validity. ive since also lost the ability
to express myself the way i want to. none of this is coming out the way
it should be. but id like a girl to click with. the missing piece of the
puzzle. if you dont understand what im talking about, go listen to
Kleenex Girl Wonders album "ponyoak" or something. that pretty much says
it all.
uhm. songs to make out to. magnetic fields works. the charm of the
highway strip. belle and sebastian is a good choice. songs to get it
onto. tundra/desert, flaming lips "transmissions". i bet the fight club
soundtrack would be good to fuck to. FIGHT CLUB. whatever
whoever said that shit about terrible perfect has super good taste.
once in a while theres this girl i dont know in my dreams
she reminds me of a lot of people
but shes someone that ive never seen
....and shes perrrrrfect
am i the only hopeless romantic? i bet not.
russ - looking for love in all the wrong places.
p.s. sorry about all the gut spillin.
