Quoting Ron Kulp <[EMAIL PROTECTED]>:

> 
> [Ron]
> A Low quality experience
> 
> [Case]
> So how would you say a low Quality experience of the sort you describe
> affects someone's belief in the power of the individual? You know, that
> everyone is responsible for their actions. Everyone is a free and
> autonomous agent. The world is your oyster... You can be anything you
> want to be...
> There is nothing between you and what you want but thin air... Does a
> low Quality experience like that change the meaning of such Plattitudes?
> 
> 
> [Ron]
> As I see it Case, it can go a few different ways. One could buy into the
> "victim" philosophy that one
> Is a victim of circumstnce. That somehow you deserve this position and
> fear of it getting worse inhibits
> Any action, which was the path I took. Then one day I took my 14 yr old
> hand and shaped it into a fist.
> It was very liberating day, I did'nt care about the consequence or the
> fear. It was'nt on the fellas who
> Did that, but I hit that kid like it was. It was through violence and
> self preservation that I defined
> And became aware of being a free agent to act apon life and not the
> reverse. Or, you can go down the
> Victim path and kill yourself. I've spent a few hours contemplating life
> at the end of a pistol barrel
> And always came to the resolve of influencing life rather than life
> influencing me. The pull towards
> Self destruction through alcohol and drugs was enormous but through
> dedication to refining the skills
> Of self preservation I was able to steer clear of it for the most part.
> It is a daily fight not
> To let those experiences cloud my judgement. I have worked hard at being
> conscious and aware of it's
> Influence on my thoughts and behaviour and to know that I am a free
> agent to allow it to or not.
> I view it now as both a boon and a curse. It has heighten my own sense
> of self responsibility.

God bless you, Ron. Would that all who have suffered possess the gumption
to be the independent, self-responsible individual you are. It is a daily
fight. Not everyone makes it. I know you can from the way you talk, and 
as one who has walked the walk. Thanks for sharing an inspiring message.

Regards,
Platt



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