Message 100 http://www.alansondheim.org/fire44.jpg I get mad because I can't think straight. I get mad at myself. I know that there were a lot of people mainly mail mail for ever offended. I know I've been offended by a lot of mails. I got mad and I turned myself inside out. I spilled my outside to the world and pretend that the world's bad when I am bad. I can't pull out of this period I write myself in the world when I am bad. I can't pull out of this period I can't write myself in the world where I've never been really felt I've been excepted. I'm accepted for short periods of time and then people turn away. I've used 2 faces facing the other way. I'm used to people not coming around. sometimes I'm lucky and I make friends who understand where I'm coming from. sometimes people give me a chance. But a lot of times I feel I'm not given the chance because I don't deserve one. Where am I I feel like I'm turning inside out I feel the epidemic is turning me inside out I don't know who to trust I get mad because I can't think straight. I get mad at myself. I know that there are a lot of people mainly Mayo mail forever offended. I know I have been offended by a lot of males. I got mad and I turned inside out. I spill my outside to the world and pretend that the world is bad when is I am bad. I can't pull out of this. I can't write myself in the world where I've never really felt that I've been accepted. I'm accepted for short periods of time and then people turn away. I've used two faces facing the other way. I'm used to people not coming around. Sometimes I'm lucky and I make friends who understand where I'm coming from. Sometimes people give me a chance. But a lot of I feel the epidemic is turning me inside out I go walking under street in there are people without masks I don't know who to trust sometimes there coming towards me asking for money I turned away and pretend not to hear them or ask them to keep their distance and I say that I'm vulnerable and you you couldn't kill me. I know I'm walking on it then adds I know it's a precipice for the edge of a Cliff where is the bottom of a cave where the bottom of a cave. Another that everyone I know is going through exactly the same thing. But I don't know is there going through things voice mails period or females period or men or women period or animals period or people period or viruses. I don't know if we're viruses period or worlds or periods or underground or or subterraneans or anyone I can think of can sing too many people right now I get twisted up inside myself having violent my nightmares and wake up in the middle of the night and can't fall back to sleep quietly go into another room and try to calm down times I feel I'm not given the chance because I don't deserve one. I feel like I'm turning inside out. I feel the epidemic is turning me inside out. I don't know who to trust. I go walking on the street and there are people without masks. Sometimes they are coming towards me asking for money. I turned away and pretend not to hear them. Or I asked them to keep their distance and I say that I am vulnerable and you could kill me. I know I am walking on it then adds. I know it's a precipice for the edge of a cliff where the bottom of a cave. I know that everyone I know is going through exactly the same thing. But I don't know if they're going through things with males. Or females. We're animals. Or people. Or worlds periods are underground. Or subterraneans. Or anyone I can think of. I can't think of too Quietly going to another room and try to come down I before I return to bed I feel at times that I'm upsetting her and I try not to think she's definitely the best person I've met my life and the kindest towards me I admire her work and love her dearly offer more than that anyone can imagine and I borrow she is what she does it's coming up I wish I could do something different than I'm doing now feel what I'm doing now is self destructive feel like I'm drawing lines in the sand as I've watched different people leave me not want to know me anymore I've lost people who I thought were close friends someone recently horse people to death I make close friends with people I didn't realize I was close to I find it confusing world there are a few people who have done me wrong then I have to avoid there are a few people who have done me wrong that I have to avoid it's easy online sometimes sometimes it's not so easy this is exactly the same for everyone many people right now. I get twisted up inside myself and having violent nightmares and wake up in the middle of the night and can't fall back to sleep I quietly go into another room and try to calm down before I return to bed. I feel at times that I'm upsetting at her and I try not to. I think she is definitely the best person I've met in my life and the kindest towards me. I admire her work and who she is and what she does coming up. I wish I could do something different that I'm doing now. I feel what I'm doing now is self-destructive. I feel like I'm drawing lines in the sand as I watched different people leave me not want to know me anymore. I've lost people who I thought were close friends someone recently. I made close friends with people who I didn't realize I was close to. I find it confusing World. There are few people who have done me wrong This is the same for everyone that I know at this point it's not really different for anyone I think so it's early in the morning now it's 20 to 7 in the morning at 6:45 in the morning sometimes I'm up to between 4 and 2 AM there's lots of noise then there's a break hours sometimes several hours sometimes there's not. I don't know what to do or what I'm doing or why I'm dictating this period I don't know what I'll do with it I wish you could do some things I love you doing now. I feel what I'm doing now is self destructive that I have to avoid. It's easy online sometimes. Sometimes it's not so easy. This is exactly the same for everyone I know at this point. The sounds outside our play so very loud they wake me up early in the morning starting around 4 I am. Sometimes and around 2 a.m. Then there's a break of several hours sometimes there's not. I don't know what I do or what I'm doing or why I'm dictating this. I don't know what I'll do with it. I wish I could do something different than I'm doing now . I feel what I'm doing now is self destructive . I feel like I'm drawing lines in the sand as I watched different people leave me not want to know me anymore. I've lost people who I thought were close friends someone recently. I made close friends with people I didn't realize I was close to. I find it confusing world me up early in the morning starting around 4 I am. sometimes in around 2 AM . then there's a break several hours sometimes there's not . I don't know what I do or what I'm doing or why I'm dictating this period I don't know what I'll do with it. I wish you could do some things I love you doing now . I feel what I'm doing now is self destructive. Shall we continue . Certainly this is initeresting ini the gray dawn. In the gray dawn where dictation collapsed and I write this endlessly typing one world aftre another. So it is time to clearr all bufers and stop and try tipe again in the don. Now i will do so then I wil stop. Something will stop me now in the grade on something is dictating and now I am speaking again. just so as you know enough to shut this down. Something is beginning and not feeling another buffer. The old buffer is over. the new one begins . It is the great daund. It is the dawn of the coronavirus. Is the morning of the coronavirus. is the afternoon of the coronavirus. It is the evening of the coronavirus. Is the night of the coronavirus. It is the week of the coronavirus. It is the month of the coronavirus. is here of the coronavirus. It is the year of the coronavirus. it is the year of the coronavirus. It is the year of the coronavirus. To see your of the coronavirus. His is the dog it is the dawn . It is the dog at 7 add 10 minutes to 7 in the morning. At 7 minutes 27 it's just the dog is very very morning at 7 minutes to 7 it is the dawn this very very morning. _______________________________________________ NetBehaviour mailing list [email protected] https://lists.netbehaviour.org/mailman/listinfo/netbehaviour
