I agree with what you're saying. I live in my head too much. It worries me, but I always have done to greater or lesser extents. A few years ago I thought I was coming out of it, but over the past few years where I'm working in factories at machines by myself, and not being extroverted enough to have conversations by shouting at the top of my voice (I don't recall what the top of my voice sounds like anymore) I seem to be becoming more introverted again and I don't think it's particularly good for me. Then I spend most of my free time on the PC, often programming.
I program to enable me to do things with software I either can't afford or software not capable of doing what I want it to. Of course I had to spend years learning to do this and my capabilities are limited by not having awesome-super-startlingly-intelligent intelligence. I've recently created a fork ( http://github.com/jwm-art-net/Petri-Foo not recommended for normal use as load/save is broken) of a software sampler. I've added a number of new features to it, and made changes to the way in which some aspects of it interact with each other. During coding I obviously tested what I had done by loading samples into the program and then sequencing them (with another program connected via ALSA/JACK) etc and playing around with them checking that things worked. Now I've achieved many of the targets I set out to implement when I begun (though I've disabled the patch save/load code until all features have stabilized and chosen on a file format to use (probably http://library.gnome.org/devel/glib/stable/glib-Key-value-file-parser.html) etc)) blah blah blah. So I'm left feeling drained again by it. During testing I played around with it and my creativity was momentarily satisfied. Creating a piece of music - a track, a tune, or whatever - seems like too much hard work. There's lots of boring stuff left to program on it (fileloadsave) (so session management (via new jack session api works). And complex stuff to do with multi-threading I'm not expertly confident with but I'm sure should be done. luckily going on holiday soon. and then i've got a whole long time left to look forward to being slowly lobotomised by machines - at home and at work. the future's bleak, the future's some dull grey colour. (note to self) YOU'RE GOING ON HOLIDAY SOON SNAP OUT OF YOU STUPID BASTARD! (/note to self) /james imagines to no avail himself slapping himself around the face/ james. On 19 March 2011 00:30, Alan Sondheim <[email protected]> wrote: > > > I think about stuff like this a lot; there's something artificial or > disconnected about online - which I think is one reason I continue to play > music on acoustic instruments that need real physical care. Tonight I > lined my sanshin (Okinawan instrument) case; I have to keep the instrument > in somewhat higher humidity than the others because of the antique snake- > skin on the body. When I play it, or any acoustic instrument, it's > responding directly to my body; there's no reverb or buffer to cover my > mistakes. Without things like this, I'd live/write/teach/talk too much in > my head, a deadening body dangling from words... > > - Alan > > On Fri, 18 Mar 2011, James Morris wrote: > >> I'd get back on my bike! >> >> >> On 18 March 2011 02:04, Alan Sondheim <[email protected]> wrote: >>> >>> >>> At least we wouldn't get viruses! >>> What if the power ran out? :-) >>> >>> On Fri, 18 Mar 2011, James Morris wrote: >>> >>>> And what about if all the openness of the internet was lost? If the >>>> powers that be decided all this access to knowledge dangerous for us >>>> little people and giving us too many ideas. What if the powers that be >>>> decided to close down all our access to this stuff? >>>> >>>> You'd be left with your Ubuntu Linux system. I'd be left with my Arch >>>> Linux system. Neither of us would be able to update our systems or get >>>> more software for it (and pretend for a minute that the internet is >>>> the only network where you'd be able to get software). But because we >>>> both use Linux and not Windows, we'd both be able to write new >>>> software for it if so inclined. Though the Arch user is more likely to >>>> be able to do this than the Ubuntu user. >>>> >>>> It was just an exercise. >>>> >>>> James Morris. >>>> >>>> >>>> >>>> >>>> On 17 March 2011 23:50, Alan Sondheim <[email protected]> wrote: >>>>> >>>>> >>>>> The good thing about Ubuntu of course is that updating is simple, even to >>>>> another release. I _don't want_ to play with the system - I want to use >>>>> it, and Ubuntu's amazingly functional. >>>>> >>>>> - Alan >>>>> >>>>> On Thu, 17 Mar 2011, James Morris wrote: >>>>> >>>>>> With Linux you are free to NOT UPDATE your system. RESIST. >>>>>> >>>>>> I would like to decide to do this. Freeze my system. All the software >>>>>> on it, all the documentation on it. That's it, that's all that's >>>>>> available to me. No other resources. No internet. It's all just here. >>>>>> If I need new features I will code them. I will break and mend my >>>>>> system. No single part of it over a period of forty years would remain >>>>>> untouched from my prying. I would lock it away from the outside world. >>>>>> It would evolve to my evolving specifications and idiosyncrasies - >>>>>> especially the latter. >>>>>> >>>>>> I would like to do this but I don't have the time. So I will update my >>>>>> system in a timely manner - especially as an internet user. >>>>>> >>>>>> Semaj Sirrom >>>>>> >>>>>> -- >>>>>> _ >>>>>> : http://jwm-art.net/ >>>>>> -audio/image/text/code/ >>>>>> _______________________________________________ >>>>>> NetBehaviour mailing list >>>>>> [email protected] >>>>>> http://www.netbehaviour.org/mailman/listinfo/netbehaviour >>>>>> >>>>>> >>>>> >>>>> >>>>> == >>>>> email archive: http://sondheim.rupamsunyata.org/ >>>>> webpage http://www.alansondheim.org >>>>> music archive: http://www.espdisk.com/alansondheim/ >>>>> current text http://www.alansondheim.org/qx.txt >>>>> == >>>>> _______________________________________________ >>>>> NetBehaviour mailing list >>>>> [email protected] >>>>> http://www.netbehaviour.org/mailman/listinfo/netbehaviour >>>>> >>>> >>>> >>>> >>>> -- >>>> _ >>>> : http://jwm-art.net/ >>>> -audio/image/text/code/ >>>> _______________________________________________ >>>> NetBehaviour mailing list >>>> [email protected] >>>> http://www.netbehaviour.org/mailman/listinfo/netbehaviour >>>> >>>> >>> >>> >>> == >>> email archive: http://sondheim.rupamsunyata.org/ >>> webpage http://www.alansondheim.org >>> music archive: http://www.espdisk.com/alansondheim/ >>> current text http://www.alansondheim.org/qx.txt >>> == >>> _______________________________________________ >>> NetBehaviour mailing list >>> [email protected] >>> http://www.netbehaviour.org/mailman/listinfo/netbehaviour >>> >> >> >> >> -- >> _ >> : http://jwm-art.net/ >> -audio/image/text/code/ >> _______________________________________________ >> NetBehaviour mailing list >> [email protected] >> http://www.netbehaviour.org/mailman/listinfo/netbehaviour >> >> > > > == > email archive: http://sondheim.rupamsunyata.org/ > webpage http://www.alansondheim.org > music archive: http://www.espdisk.com/alansondheim/ > current text http://www.alansondheim.org/qx.txt > == > _______________________________________________ > NetBehaviour mailing list > [email protected] > http://www.netbehaviour.org/mailman/listinfo/netbehaviour > -- _ : http://jwm-art.net/ -audio/image/text/code/ _______________________________________________ NetBehaviour mailing list [email protected] http://www.netbehaviour.org/mailman/listinfo/netbehaviour
