Hi James,

In spite of your depression at the end, I have to say I admire your 
software/hardware abilities; my programming skills are close to nil, I can 
kludge some stuff together but barely and that's about it. I haven't even 
gotten Jack/Alsa to run that well on my machines. When I think of your 
work, I think of the programming, and your writing about the programming, 
as much art as anything else, and I find it brilliant; you write about it 
with a passion and knowledge that really exceeds my own. What I'm good at 
is tuning things, making things work together, but not real interoperabil- 
ity. I'll spend hours setting up cameras etc. for example in Second Life, 
but my SL programming skills are minimal, again kludging; it's the weak 
side of stuff. I worry I'm fiddling around too much.

I always read your posts completely and learn from them, keep on going of 
course... -

- Alan


On Sat, 19 Mar 2011, James Morris wrote:

> I agree with what you're saying.
>
> I live in my head too much. It worries me, but I always have done to
> greater or lesser extents. A few years ago I thought I was coming out
> of it, but over the past few years where I'm working in factories at
> machines by myself, and not being extroverted enough to have
> conversations by shouting at the top of my voice (I don't recall what
> the top of my voice sounds like anymore) I seem to be becoming more
> introverted again and I don't think it's particularly good for me.
> Then I spend most of my free time on the PC, often programming.
>
> I program to enable me to do things with software I either can't
> afford or software not capable of doing what I want it to. Of course I
> had to spend years learning to do this and my capabilities are limited
> by not having awesome-super-startlingly-intelligent intelligence.
>
> I've recently created a fork ( http://github.com/jwm-art-net/Petri-Foo
> not recommended for normal use as load/save is broken) of a software
> sampler. I've added a number of new features to it, and made changes
> to the way in which some aspects of it interact with each other.
> During coding I obviously tested what I had done by loading samples
> into the program and then sequencing them (with another program
> connected via ALSA/JACK) etc and playing around with them checking
> that things worked.
>
> Now I've achieved many of the targets I set out to implement when I
> begun (though I've disabled the patch save/load code until all
> features have stabilized and chosen on a file format to use (probably
> http://library.gnome.org/devel/glib/stable/glib-Key-value-file-parser.html)
> etc)) blah blah blah.
>
> So I'm left feeling drained again by it. During testing I played
> around with it and my creativity was momentarily satisfied. Creating a
> piece of music - a track, a tune, or whatever - seems like too much
> hard work.
>
> There's lots of boring stuff left to program on it (fileloadsave) (so
> session management (via new jack session api works). And complex stuff
> to do with multi-threading I'm not expertly confident with but I'm
> sure should be done.
>
> luckily going on holiday soon. and then i've got a whole long time
> left to look forward to being slowly lobotomised by machines - at home
> and at work. the future's bleak, the future's some dull grey colour.
>
> (note to self) YOU'RE GOING ON HOLIDAY SOON SNAP OUT OF YOU STUPID
> BASTARD! (/note to self)
>
> /james imagines to no avail himself slapping himself around the face/
>
>
> james.
>
> On 19 March 2011 00:30, Alan Sondheim <[email protected]> wrote:
>>
>>
>> I think about stuff like this a lot; there's something artificial or
>> disconnected about online - which I think is one reason I continue to play
>> music on acoustic instruments that need real physical care. Tonight I
>> lined my sanshin (Okinawan instrument) case; I have to keep the instrument
>> in somewhat higher humidity than the others because of the antique snake-
>> skin on the body. When I play it, or any acoustic instrument, it's
>> responding directly to my body; there's no reverb or buffer to cover my
>> mistakes. Without things like this, I'd live/write/teach/talk too much in
>> my head, a deadening body dangling from words...
>>
>> - Alan
>>
>> On Fri, 18 Mar 2011, James Morris wrote:
>>
>>> I'd get back on my bike!
>>>
>>>
>>> On 18 March 2011 02:04, Alan Sondheim <[email protected]> wrote:
>>>>
>>>>
>>>> At least we wouldn't get viruses!
>>>> What if the power ran out? :-)
>>>>
>>>> On Fri, 18 Mar 2011, James Morris wrote:
>>>>
>>>>> And what about if all the openness of the internet was lost? If the
>>>>> powers that be decided all this access to knowledge dangerous for us
>>>>> little people and giving us too many ideas. What if the powers that be
>>>>> decided to close down all our access to this stuff?
>>>>>
>>>>> You'd be left with your Ubuntu Linux system. I'd be left with my Arch
>>>>> Linux system. Neither of us would be able to update our systems or get
>>>>> more software for it (and pretend for a minute that the internet is
>>>>> the only network where you'd be able to get software). But because we
>>>>> both use Linux and not Windows, we'd both be able to write new
>>>>> software for it if so inclined. Though the Arch user is more likely to
>>>>> be able to do this than the Ubuntu user.
>>>>>
>>>>> It was just an exercise.
>>>>>
>>>>> James Morris.
>>>>>
>>>>>
>>>>>
>>>>>
>>>>> On 17 March 2011 23:50, Alan Sondheim <[email protected]> wrote:
>>>>>>
>>>>>>
>>>>>> The good thing about Ubuntu of course is that updating is simple, even to
>>>>>> another release. I _don't want_ to play with the system - I want to use
>>>>>> it, and Ubuntu's amazingly functional.
>>>>>>
>>>>>> - Alan
>>>>>>
>>>>>> On Thu, 17 Mar 2011, James Morris wrote:
>>>>>>
>>>>>>> With Linux you are free to NOT UPDATE your system. RESIST.
>>>>>>>
>>>>>>> I would like to decide to do this. Freeze my system. All the software
>>>>>>> on it, all the documentation on it. That's it, that's all that's
>>>>>>> available to me. No other resources. No internet. It's all just here.
>>>>>>> If I need new features I will code them. I will break and mend my
>>>>>>> system. No single part of it over a period of forty years would remain
>>>>>>> untouched from my prying. I would lock it away from the outside world.
>>>>>>> It would evolve to my evolving specifications and idiosyncrasies -
>>>>>>> especially the latter.
>>>>>>>
>>>>>>> I would like to do this but I don't have the time. So I will update my
>>>>>>> system in a timely manner - especially as an internet user.
>>>>>>>
>>>>>>> Semaj Sirrom
>>>>>>>
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