Re: Self and Meta-Self / Individual and Community (long)

[WeBe TrainConsult]

Dear Michael,   I think you are right. And I read, what your write, in its immediate application also as a personal message to me. So I'll try. Not so easy though....   I think I showed myself on the list for a while, but then I disappeared for a long time. The reason is, that in 2002/3 I got some bad health problems and after checking for all the possible tropical diseases I finally got a Multiple Sclerosis diagnosis in Brazil, confirmed then in Zimbabwe and finally in Austria. Since then I am undergoing quite a deep transformation process. I had to find new priorities, to work less, produce less stress for me (and hopefully others). I had to practice this a lot, because I had been one of these hyperactive guys, a complete adrenaline-junkie. I decided to do more meditation, got myself radically "out of action" concentrated on the central things in life. Meaning, the "Here and Now", the little things.   I took the big poster "It is never too late, to do nothing"  (which Carrie Snow via ho had shared with the OSLIST, it served me well for a while, thank you) from my wall and substituted it by "NOW is the time to DO NOTEHING" because I perceived, that the original version permitted a reading, which was not so good for me, because it is a fact that "it CAN be too late to do nothing" ;-) if I wait too long....   I remembered my old nickname from school times, when I started doing Yoga-praxis ("Bodhi"), went to Venezuela and learned to practice better from Namkhai Chögyal Norbu Rinpoche at the Gar in Margarita Island. None of the gurus I had known of or met before had been the right one, since I had defined myself as "fighting for enlightenment and emancipation" I had even learned to "hate the GURU-ism". But this was the right moment...   I started to do a lot more of pro bono consultancy than before, mainly for the people around me here in Beira. Slowly coming back to action I started a permaculture garden around our house, trained Jaime and Armando and Sergio-José (our guards) to become permaculturists (together with me); gave micro-entrepreneur consultancy to Estrela, the daughter of the fisherman, who brings regularly fresh shrimps to our garden, she is now a reflexologist with a growing stock of clients; did consultancy for Manuel, one of the beggars, a polio victim in wheel-chair, who had always  been waiting for me in front of Shoprite, the South African Supermarket in Beira, to establish a "negócio de petróleo" (which went so well, that he got over exited in his new role as micro-entrepreneur and invested, without discussing it with me, all the money he had earned , in fireworks, which he wanted to sell before new years eve, but, alas, police confiscated everything and I had some trouble getting him out of prison- we are quite a corrupt culture here, but that is another story); all this with a concept of "opening micro space in everyday life... gave money to Ignatious, an orphan student in Zimbabwe to finish his professional training; money and a lot of consultancy at various levels to Humberto, another polio wheel chair guy in Guiné-Bissau, who had sucessfully established a private school there, but a thunderstorm had torn down their mud buildings. ...   Neither lurking nor contributing to discussions list was high on my priority list, as you can perhaps imagine. I was finding new role definitions for my further life.    But I think I am now stable enough to connect again with some of my networks, without getting lost in secondary activities in my further life. So I came back to the OSLIST a short while ago.   HERE I AM   I send some African energy to all of you Bernd Am Wed, 24 Aug 2005 00:05:34 +0200, schrieb Pannwitz, Michael M: > I feel that one of the consequences for the way we communicate on > this list and elsewhere, and I experience it in this list a lot > already, > is to show myself. ' >all your lurkers out > there, next time you facilitate an ost event, show yourselves. * * ========================================================== osl...@listserv.boisestate.edu ------------------------------ To subscribe, unsubscribe, change your options, view the archives of osl...@listserv.boisestate.edu: http://listserv.boisestate.edu/archives/oslist.html To learn about OpenSpaceEmailLists and OSLIST FAQs: http://www.openspaceworld.org/oslist