To the delight of all "Tanya Mayer Photography" <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote this:
Hi Tan, bad day hunh? You will get those, its part of life. The trick is to make the good ones out-weigh the bad ones :) > Just goes to > show that I am not "worth" as much as you all seem to think... I hate to play the nasty here, but, get over it! Despite over-whelming evidence to the contrary, you believe your work to be inferior. I too battle with doubts about my abilities. I have never mentioned this before to anyone, but, at a wedding, I double exposed a whole role of film because of this habit I had of leaving the film 'tongue' out so I did'nt have to dig it out and was easier to to process. Such a stupid and basic error. It still haunts me. Alot of my work is in a little studio next to a modelling agency. I labour very hard to produce good results. These models rely on the photo's I take to move on in their careers. I am alway nervous. Now, for a little tale. Some months ago, a 27 year old girl came to the modelling agency seeking work. Unemployed for most of her life due to her lack of confidence in herself. She was not an attractive girl by catwalk standards and could barely walk without stumbling. She was totally awkward and clumsy with a morose personality. Her portfolio was a scrap book of the most horrid pics I had seen in some time. These had been done by professionals. The were over/under exposed, the poses unflattering, the composition non-existant. I say horrid because some of the photos looked almost Bela Lugosi in nature. The make-up looked like it had been applied by Picasso on one of his off days. The girls in the modelling agency did a make over and hair for her, then put her in a very flattering dress, and presented her for photographing. The transformation was amazing. So, I took some shots, about 100, and came up with 4 nice ones that I was happy with. When printed we had 4 shots of a beautiful woman, not the awkward girl that had come in off the street. She was ecstatic with the results. It was as though we had released some inner princess and captured it for the world to see. She never did go on with modelling, but she now works for a major department store as sales manager and she is happy. She drops by the studio every now and then for a chat and tells us how greatful she was to have had that day where she was a queen. End of tale... I really don't think you could put a price on her change in life that stemmed from that day. I am far from a great photographer, I know my limitations but I am always striving to push at those to extend myself as a photographer. Sure I have self doubts and of course I make mistakes. Then I look back on some of the successes, and I just feel a little better, and get on with what I know. I truely empathize with your self doubts. But it is those doubts that are your greatest strength, it is those doubts that have you put in the extra effort and make the high quality photo's that you make. In every photo you take, be it a clothing item or a landscape, there is a bit of you in all of them. This is what makes them so good. Hope I have not prattled on too much Best wishes Kevin -- ______ (_____ \ _____) ) ____ ____ ____ ____ | ____/ / _ ) / _ | / ___) / _ ) | | ( (/ / ( ( | |( (___ ( (/ / |_| \____) \_||_| \____) \____) Kevin Waterson Port Macquarie, Australia
