A couple of months ago, after I began taking naps almost every 
night over a three week period—something that was unprecedented 
for me—my wife urged me to get a check-up. So alarmed was I about 
my changing sleep patterns that arrived with the force of jet lag 
that I broke with my ostrich-like aversion to medical exams and 
made an appointment. At the age of 67, I knew that it was better 
to find out about some frightening condition even if medical 
science lacked the means to overcome it.

My overall attitude toward such matters was profoundly fatalistic. 
I could not help but thinking that my body was like a car with 
over 100,000 miles on it. It might get me from point A to point B 
for the time being but eventually it would be done in by the 
organic counterpart of rust. To extend the motor vehicle analogy 
further, by the time I had reached the age of 50 I began feeling 
like Yves Montand driving that truck filled with dynamite in 
“Wages of Fear”. No matter how careful you were, death would catch 
up to you. I might have spent over 45 years defending socialist 
ideas, but before that I was a hard-core existentialist. It was 
hard not to think in existential terms, after all, when it came to 
matters of life and death.

full: 
http://louisproyect.wordpress.com/2012/04/03/sugar-the-bitter-truth/
_______________________________________________
pen-l mailing list
[email protected]
https://lists.csuchico.edu/mailman/listinfo/pen-l

Reply via email to