I apologize for the following rant.
I have read Joni's book. It is a good book, but I still have a hard time seeing God's will in all this. And if it is God's will, I have a hard time with Him. There is an old saying that the prettiest flowers grow on the manure pile. This means great things can come from the worst circumstances. True, no doubt. And some good things have come from my condition. However, as I grow old, 62, I find myself becoming bitter and resentful. I think about my life pre-injury, and I get overwhelmed with anger and despair. I was only 19, cheated out of the best years of life. I know I am preaching to the choir; many of you were injured even earlier. I have reached the point, though, that I am tired of it all. I am tired of being a burden, of depending on others, of being told I am selfish when I ask for help. I am tired of hurting all the time. I am tired of pissing my pants and being afraid to go anywhere because of it. I am tired of being useless. I am tired of being a cripple and I am tired of life. Sent from my iPad Begin forwarded message: > Resent-From: [email protected] > From: RONALD L PRACHT <[email protected]> > Date: November 18, 2014 at 7:50:51 PM EST > To: "[email protected]" <[email protected]> > Subject: [QUAD-L] Has anybody read When God Weeps? > Reply-To: RONALD L PRACHT <[email protected]> > > I have been told many times the reason Im injured is because of the > soveirenty of god. The book by Joni Ericson Tada, When god Weeps explains > whats this means. Anybody read it? > > Ron
