I appreciate the comments. I don't know if any of you have ever watched the ministry channel called TBN? Well there was a healer on there named Binny Hinn. He had a lady with big white hair that helped out on the show by the name Joan Geasin. This lady rented a Winnebago for me when I was first injured and took me for two days of going to services, fancy dining and giving the homeless sandwiches. I asked her at the time why I was in a wheelchair at 21. She said it was because of the sovernty of god. Im not into religion much, but at my 17th year post Im having a hard time. My friends, gfs, therapy, counselor and every outlet I had quit on me when I had my last surgery. Im riddled with pain in a cold house most everyday alone. I cant get myself to even drive anywhere because honestly Im past depression into despair. I cant see whats going to change to make things easier for me. Im not looking for happiness , but just a way to make it without hurting so much emotionally and physically. Every friend I had has three kids and a wife now. I based my existence the first 15 yrs just doing swimming, lifting, biking and gfs in between with a couple buddies . Ive hit a wall. Im sure from my research my syrinx has become symptomatic to the extent it has from my vigorous workouts. My entire indentity was based on these challenges . With my syrinx, hernia, cut up stomach, I cant possibly do what I did my fist 15 yrs physically. Im thinking of going back to the gym to just swim, but I just cant take the pressure anymore of doing an effective bowell routine b4 I go to the pool. Im thinking of changing my BM schedule to mon-wed-fri and do the pool on the off days . Im a tough guy , but I feel Im crossing a desert with no end in sight. Anyway I saw that book for sale for 4 bucks and thought about buying it. My life reminds me of a song that goes.......Im going through some things...........Im going through some things............Lord Help Me!
On Tuesday, November 18, 2014 7:36 PM, Danny Hearn <[email protected]> wrote: I have heard Joni on TV and read one of her books early in my injury but can't remember which one....But God don't cause injuries to people life happens to us ALL, we all have free will also. I'm not sure the people you mention blame God--but if so why not blame Satan? God can use circumstances to help us become closer to him or his ways. Good subject though, I'm sure we have all thought of things like this and the meaning of this Earth life. Dan H*** On Tuesday, November 18, 2014 6:50 PM, RONALD L PRACHT <[email protected]> wrote: I have been told many times the reason Im injured is because of the soveirenty of god. The book by Joni Ericson Tada, When god Weeps explains whats this means. Anybody read it? Ron
