Last night after work the phone rang...

"Duane, I hate to tell you but your Dad has taken a turn for the worse since 
noon..
they don't know if he will last the night."

"I'll be right over-'

Cdr.Jen,Josh GMA#3911 and myself drove over the columbia river to Gresham,Or
where my Dad was at a nurseing hom.  We entered his room and there was a "shell"
of the man I once knew.

Julia (his wife 78)  gave me a hug and said:  "He was talking this morning and 
told
me he had gone to heaven twice.. only to be dis appointed on opening his eyes 
and
being in a hospital bed"

"*Wow.." said Josh..  as I let out a big sad sigh...

You see.. there isn't a good reason for this.  All his medical vital signs are 
stable,
hearts pumping fine, BP under control with no history of illness. The man has 
just
given up on life.   He's got him self in a jam, so that all who surround him 
have to
agree that he is headed to a better place than the one he is in now.

I admit to being powerless to change the outcome, and only with courage...
do I claim to find the power, ...I do reserve to "let go"...

*Thanks for reading this-  It's been a brewing a long time.

The hard lessons I'm learning have to do with why we embrace Life and choose to 
live.
The final outcome of Death hasn't happened yet for my Dad.  A lifetime drama is 
comming
to a lingering and extended head.   

*Prayers for courage,wisdom kindly accepted<G>

Duane
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The Golden Rule is my daily rule.

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