After thinking about it for two months or so, I have just officially said 
goodbye to my lucrative career driving an 18-wheeler and traded it in for a 
job changing oil and tires at Wal-Mart for less than half of what I used to 
make.

Believe me, I'd love to entertain other options, and I've been trying to find 
some other kind of job the whole time.  Some "none of the above" Option C in 
this.  I just can't find anything else to do with myself right now.  The only 
jobs that feel like the kind of thing I'd like to do for a living are only 
available as short-term temp gigs that are few, far between, and difficult to 
get even for all that.  I just can't live from temp job to temp job.  That 
kind of uncertainty was fine when I was a kid with no real responsibilities, 
but I can't live like that now.

So I've stepped back to a fork in the road, and I'm going to follow the other 
path, and see where I would have ended up if I had stayed on at Wal-Mart 
instead of quitting to go to truck driving school.  I'm actually starting 
pretty close to where I left off 11 years ago, and I don't have to begin at 
the very beginning all over again, so it's possible to see how this is going 
to play out within a year or so.

It's a really surreal place to be in life.  Part of me can't take working at 
Wal-Mart seriously at all.  WTF am I thinking?  But it's somewhere to jump to 
in order to get off the ship I'm on before it sinks. I rode the last one to 
the bottom, and getting laid off was miserable.  I have good intelligence 
that the job I'm leaving is going to evaporate by December anyway, and I have 
no intention of riding that train all the way to the bit where we see whether 
the tracks are going to end abruptly at a ravine or not.  If my successor is 
still working this time next year, I'll probably feel like an idiot, but if 
he's going over the road for $0.30 a mile getting paid on a 1099 with no 
benefits, no paid vacations, sick days, etc., I'll probably be tapdancing all 
the way to the oil changing pit.  (Though hopefully by this time next year I 
will have long since escaped the Tire and Lube Express anyway.  I'm taking 
that job because that's what they need at the moment, and I'm going to be 
flexible, and make myself as useful as possible.)

I'm glad I'm getting out of that, and I'm glad I have finally reached the 
decision that no, I absolutely will not go over the road.  (The easiest way 
by a gigantic margin to find a job in the trucking business.)  But I do wish 
I had been able to come up with a plan that would involve less hardship.  We 
are going to be desperately poor like we haven't seen in more than a decade, 
and I hate being poor.

I'm not begging anyone for donations, but if anyone wants to part with some 
cash, I'll gladly accept anything.  I'm ruined, financially.  Totally ruined.  
I'll keep my internet connection as long as possible, but it's definitely on 
the "luxuries to be dispensed with" side of the ledger if it comes to that, 
and it well may.

But I hope I can be a happier man after this.  I've been profoundly unhappy 
with the direction my life was taking for a long time now, and while I am 
frankly terrified of what's to come, and sitting here in shocked disbelief 
that I actually went through with this, after around two months of waffling, 
I'm also glad I don't have to drive a truck anymore, and I can put that 
behind me now.  I wish I had been able to find a more tidy way to escape a 
career I long since started to hate, but at least I did escape in the end.

Wish me luck, everyone!
-- 
D. Michael McIntyre 

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