I HAVE RECEIVED THE FOLLOWING LETTER FROM A BHAJAN BOY OF SWAMY. If any body has any question in their mind regarding, WHY SWAMY HAS LEFT US EARLIER, THIS LETTER WOULD PROVIDE REMARKABLE INSIGHT. SINCE THIS DEVOTED BOY HAS ALLOWED US TO SHARE THIS INFORMATION, I AM PASSING THIS ON TO YOU ALL. WITH LOVE SR Sairam Brothers, I know this is perhaps the most tragic, personally devastating moments in each one of our lives....However, in these times of depression, I thought it is time we as Sai brothers and sisters come united and send out a positive force of energy....I have just randomly penned down my thoughts below.... It was the kodai trip in 2006. Swami was looking physically weak the day we landed. As you all might know Swami's body had been suffering from low BP for quite some time. To add to this, the high altitude conditions weren't helping either I guess. On the second day of the trip He was really feeling sick and in the middle of a session (with students) He started bleeding profusely from His nose. We all were very worried and requested Swami that we head back to parthi. Swami then spoke to us for the next 5 minutes and this happens to be the crux of my thoughts. He told us that the doctors were a bit worried about His health. He later revealed that He had bit of sugar, low BP and few other ailments and the senior doctors like Dr Alreja were not happy the way He was taking care of His body...And then he said "I CAN LEAVE THIS BODY ANYTIME I WANT!" Borther R J Ratnakar and many of us (infact almost all of us) started weeping after listening to those words. And then he said you guys should be brave and not cry over this matter. You people have to stay together after my demise....Both birth and death are equally auspicious events for they are the 2 points in any human existence that define life! Why they need to be seen through a partial eye? The reason why we cry over death is because we attach ourselves (and not Love!) to that which takes place in this interval. At the time of death all that has ever happened seems like a perfect dream. Isn't it? If we people cry and feel sad over His death we would have truly KILLED HIS TEACHINGS. For 70+ years He has been preaching that I am not the body. However, it might be impossible for us to live with that heightened degree of equanimity; we might weep for 1 month...but what matters is after that do we get back to our old ways? No, that is when we must show our love towards our Sai Ma by implementing things which he has always been telling us told....As He has always said We all are God, why should we act then as humans? Lets live like Gods! (dust we think dust we are..god we think gods we become). It really doesn't matter (in my opinion) whether he lives for 96 or 196 years. What true change has happened in us lets say, after 75th b'day? Similarly, if Swami would have been there with us for the next 10 years we would have been the same! He truly knows the right time to come and go. When Vivekananda was on his death bed one of his devotees/disciples asked: "Swami why are you leaving us so early? You have been with us only for 39 years" And then Swamiji replied "I have lived for 10000 years!" (meaning he had achieved what ordinary mortals would achieve in 10000 years). If you look on those lines our Swami has probably lived for a Zillion years (or till the end of human existence and more...). 85, 96 these are mere number and quite not the realty. For He who is beyond space and time, as i said earlier, HE decides the right time...If you were to look at the current crisis in a different sense, I would say that its the time to rejoice because He has achieved what he was supposed to do in 96 years in 85 years! So dear brothers and sisters, its high time we send out positive vibrations amongst the various Sai brotherhood communities and give them hope and courage! As i write this I am truly devastated from his personal loss but the higher mind tends to take over the grieving one...for the grieving mind lives with memories and the intellect in the most beautiful moment called NOW! I hope I have not disturbed your emotions and sentiments. Pardon me if I have done so.. (You may pass it on to others if you feel so) Jai Sai Ram! __,_._,___
