[NetBehaviour] absolutely about death

[Alan Sondheim]

absolutely about death

"if your goal is to live, you'll never know when you've lost;
if your goal is to die, you'll never know when you've won."

http://www.alansondheim.org/return.jpg
http://www.alansondheim.org/returned.jpg

Thu Jun 25 00:34:50 EDT 2020 the sso unutterable inconceivable
none. the dead lamp deadlamp is the sun would you know.
inconceivable molcular formations in a billion years. invisible
to everyone. i weep by the shores only now. now. now. Thu Jun 25
00:46:12 EDT 2020 Thu Jun 25 00:47:12 EDT 2020

Thu Jun 25 00:34:50 EDT 2020

falling apart. there are these odd spaces here, the blues. desire
dies when the body does. other bodies come close come close pick up
body carry it to them dissolves redbrown liquid clear fluid pastel.
Thu Jun 25 00:36:13 EDT 2020 chosen as if something has fallen.
there's nothing there, what falls is gravity. do you understand?
what falls is gravity. Thu Jun 25 00:36:56 EDT 2020 your posture
becomes you for a moment that you have always already forgotten.
bones and shards, red dust, murksex dried semen or blood pooled
somewhere a castle singson the plateaus, serrations. uncomfortable
as if no place to sit or stand or die. you ONLY WRYTE about death
when you're alive, she said. you don't even do that then when. Thu
Jun 25 00:38:55 EDT 2020 discomfort for a moment then i'm gone.
nothing remains. my last sight of you. you will move on, see other
things. i will see nothing. not even absence. i cannot imagine
this. sometimes i turn to him or her to say something whisper
speak. sometimes i collapse pray for death. not this half life. not
that half death something complete. then i think: to be alive is to
be completely. in and out top to bottom left to right south to
north. what more or less Thu Jun 25 00:40:51 EDT 2020 i cannot
write death when i have not experienced death. i cannot experience
death and return for welcome news. no news is sorrow news. no news
is always already gone, seeps inside of one like a virus telling
less than clock time. Thu Jun 25 00:42:00 EDT 2020 i cannot stand
this now, only later will you remember this. Thu Jun 25 00:42:15
EDT 2020

my tears are soldered to my body Thu Jun 25 00:43:18 EDT 2020
returned as gift for you. the now. no, the Thu Jun 25 00:44:51 EDT
2020 now Thu Jun 25 00:47:19 EDT 2020 Thu Jun 25 00:47:19 EDT 2020


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Re: [NetBehaviour] 60 years ago today - music transmission across 4 generations of Catlows

[Edward Picot via NetBehaviour]

I love this thread!

My father was Paul Le Saux, who used to write scripts for British 
Transport Films. They made travelogues, part-documentary and part-artsy, 
about various aspects of the railway network, and the places in Britain 
to which the trains could take you.


I always used to assume that I got my creativity from him, and he 
certainly encouraged me to write when I was young. He died when I was 
six years old. But actually I think I also inherited quite a lot from my 
maternal grandfather, who was a merchant seaman, an engineer, and later 
a foreman at the docks in Belvedere on the Thames. In his spare time he 
was also a bellringer, and I've got some notebooks of his, in which he 
wrote out peal-sequences for different numbers of bells.


Edward

On 24/06/2020 23:50, Michael Szpakowski wrote:
I can't claim any great cultural heritage apart , on my UK side,  from 
an intimate knowledge of the Methodist Hymn book, and the fact my 
mother late into her life desperately regretted that she'd never been 
able to learn the accordion, which she had *so* wanted to do instead 
of the piano.
She also only ever wrote one poem, at school, and it was clearly 
important to her, this creative act, because she remembered & recited 
it to the end of her life:


*See the little Daisy bright*
*Standing there, all through the night*
*Pink tipped petals, golden centre*
*Let us go to the castle and enter.*

Whatever frustrated creative drive she had, she later channeled into 
an almost supernatural ability to make house plants of all varieties 
grow and thrive.
My Dad was entirely uninterested in culture except for the Saturday pm 
ITV wrestling and Cossack dancing displays. He did however love nature 
with a passion and I inherited that.
As for documents -a couple of weeks ago my cousin Jarosław sent me a 
piece of testimony from my father which must have been given in 43 or 
44 & has been in the Hoover collection in the States ever since.

When he related this he was three years younger than my daughter is now.
One of my very first pieces of 'net art' (sounds quaint now) made in 
Director, but now just a piece of video, dealt with the same subjects.


The testimony:
https://bit.ly/37ZZcns


The piece:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AYPBBYPyzxA

cheers
Michael







On Tuesday, June 23, 2020, 10:18:04 AM GMT+1, Ruth Catlow via 
NetBehaviour  wrote:



Thanks Renee and Mark,
I too would like to hear of other's creative/skill inheritances. Nice 
idea Mark... go for it.

<3

On Tue, Jun 23, 2020 at 10:13 AM Mark Hancock > wrote:


I second Renée's thoughts. I love that idea that playing is
bringing the past back in such an active and evocative way.

I'd be interested in the creative skills and tools of the trade
that other people on the list have inherited, if I may be so bold
as to high-jack your email thread, Ruth?

Mark

On Tue, 23 Jun 2020 at 09:59, Renee Turner mailto:geu...@xs4all.nl>> wrote:

That’s beautifully moving Ruth <3  This post made my day.

warmly,

Renée

-._.-._.-._.- R*



a virtual embrace
wishing health & well-being to all




On Jun 23, 2020, at 10:44 AM, Ruth Catlow via NetBehaviour
mailto:netbehaviour@lists.netbehaviour.org>> wrote:

I have been playing my violin again since lock down and I
came across this sheet music for the second 2nd Bach Partita
that I played when I was much younger.

You can see from the inscription that it was a birthday
present from Rolf, my paternal grandfather, to his father
exactly 60 years ago today.

My dad John, who was a professional cellist, has a photo from
this time of the three generations of men playing chamber
music: Dad on cello, Rolf on the piano, and my great
grandfather, Arthur, playing the violin.



There is something very moving to me about this
cultural inheritance, and I wanted to share it with you all :)

warmly
Ruth

-- 
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Decentralised Arts Lab
+44 (0) 77370 02879

*sending thanks


 in
advance

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through exhibitions, labs & debate, for deep exploration,
open tools & free thinking.
furtherfield.org 

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3.0 technologiesresearch hub
for fairer, more dynamic & connected cultural ecologies &
economies now.
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[NetBehaviour] I call this...

[Pall Thayer via NetBehaviour]

Injustice Blues.

https://soundcloud.com/pall-thayer/injustice-blues

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Re: [NetBehaviour] NetBehaviour Digest, Vol 940, Issue 1

[Danielle Imara via NetBehaviour]

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Re: [NetBehaviour] Hurrah for Ruth Catlow

[Mark Hancock]

Seconded!

On Thu, 25 Jun 2020 at 13:13, Michael Szpakowski 
wrote:

> :) and , without letting this get out of hand, I think we should offer a
> resounding ‘hurrah’ also for Annie Abrahams! Ruth and Annie, two people who
> for me have been absolutely *key* in my thinking and my development...
>
>
> Sent from Yahoo Mail for iPhone 
>
>
> On Thursday, June 25, 2020, 9:04 am, Annie Abrahams 
> wrote:
>
> Another Hurray for Ruth Catlow!
>
>
>
> On Thu, Jun 25, 2020 at 12:54 AM Michael Szpakowski <
> m...@michaelszpakowski.org> wrote:
>
> Hurrah for Ruth Catlow!
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Re: [NetBehaviour] Hurrah for Ruth Catlow

[Michael Szpakowski]

:) and , without letting this get out of hand, I think we should offer a 
resounding ‘hurrah’ also for Annie Abrahams! Ruth and Annie, two people who for 
me have been absolutely *key* in my thinking and my development...


Sent from Yahoo Mail for iPhone


On Thursday, June 25, 2020, 9:04 am, Annie Abrahams  wrote:

Another Hurray for Ruth Catlow!



On Thu, Jun 25, 2020 at 12:54 AM Michael Szpakowski 
 wrote:

Hurrah for Ruth Catlow!
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Re: [NetBehaviour] Hurrah for Ruth Catlow

[Annie Abrahams via NetBehaviour]

Another Hurray for Ruth Catlow!



On Thu, Jun 25, 2020 at 12:54 AM Michael Szpakowski 
wrote:

> Hurrah for Ruth Catlow!
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