[FairfieldLife] Re: Daveyoung - a couple of things that may help
---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, awoelflebater@... wrote : ---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, no_re...@yahoogroups.com wrote : ---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, awoelflebater@... wrote : ---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, no_re...@yahoogroups.com wrote : ---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, awoelflebater@... wrote : ---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, no_re...@yahoogroups.com wrote : Yeah, Dan, the below could be useful suggestions. While I allow myself to be outrageously over the top here when I spew negativity, I'M A WRITER after all, in real life, no, not meI don't do that, cuz that's the way to get a punch in the nose. I AM A COWARD by quite a few metrics even though I've had tons of times I had to step up to plates for the kids, marriage, movement etc. I have yelled from the back of political ralliesand that's maybe the height of my public bristling. After my last most seriously PTSD causing event, 13 yrs ago, it took me a solid five years of learning to not just wallow in righteous indignation, and instead, recognize my idiosyncratic tells of when I was going over the precipice of a slippery slope. Once I could see it coming, I could divert the mind instead of dwelling in a tawdry mental indulgence that could only harden the pathways in the nervous system -- that is: make it easier to fall into negativity once again. See?it was no fun being angry, but, geeze, it took me a long time to give up the habitlike booze...it had it's deliciousness, ya know? No, I don't drink or have any prescriptions for anxiety etc. Diversions are: my relationship with my babe, family, trikking, reading, writing, media, Advaita reading, etc. And on Facebook I am a posting fool -- sharing the neat stuff I find -- and allowing myself to openly hate the psychopublicans while gnashing my teeth about Obama's selling out. I have gone over some inner dark horizon now and then, sure, but it's very rare. But when I do, even then I can use last resort techniques like psychodrama -- that is, riding the emotions but with reins on the nightmare being ridden. It's fun to scream into the night sometimes, just sayin' -- not that it's all that therapeutic. A therapist, um Cynthia Fox?, had me hitting a punching bag while screaming out my complaints...and what were the results? -- sore arms and bruised knuckles. I can get triggered and be instantly into a huge surge of negativity. Yep, it can happen. So far, no fist fights, but there's a few bike riders out there who snarked at my beast enough for me to unload with a Dune Class Bene Gesserit VOICE on them...that is, I yelled at them. And it could've gone south. So there's that, and it is exactly that that TM was, to my mind, going to naturally dissolve. It didn't...obviously. And by the way, Willy reposted some of my raging on his ass, and I think it's dang fine writing. I can't remember writing most of my stuff, and almost never reread, so when I do, it's like, hey, this guy's a good writer! So THANK YOU WILLY FOR THE SELF ESTEEM MOMENT. I love my shit. So, see? I am very seldom actually having a negative emotion. Even during my writing about Willy etcI'm having the most savory narcissistic wickedness and outright CACKLING with my cleverness. Not that I'm aloof all the time. Nabby got to me the other day, you'll note, but I let loose on that response and, yes, I was having actual anger, but by the time the piece was written, I'd was in a joyous mood from all the great blurbs that had come from the inspiration. SO THANK YOU NABBY! Poke me again you wonderful shitblast me from your special perch. Get me out of bed in the morning! I've posted so much here in the last few days...just cuz of some spotlights on my egosee how I'm slurping up the attention? Gotta pull back on this horsey! Ha ha! You are a good writer. Probably the best we've had here, not that I've been here long. Annie, You read all this? What does it say. In as few words as possible. Life's short. And there's lots to do. Can I use the last 3 lines to enter the Tokyo Haiku Contest? I love prizes. First, you can enter the haiku contest, but only if it's because you don't want to show Edg up; keep your competitive motives pure. Second, what his post says to me goes past his facility with words. What I like most about it is that, at the risk of sounding like RWC, it is REAL. The guy doesn't seem afraid to let us see what he feels inside and out. I don't know him at all. Everyone else here seems to have had a history with Edg. What I do know is that he scares me sometimes with his ferocity but he has been explaining what that is - another personal revelation. But the man can wield the words and I love that. To have the dexterity to move it around like he does goes beyond the verbal. The coolest part is that for such a scary guy he lets the
[FairfieldLife] Re: Daveyoung - a couple of things that may help
---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, awoelflebater@... wrote : ---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, no_re...@yahoogroups.com wrote : ---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, awoelflebater@... wrote : ---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, no_re...@yahoogroups.com wrote : Yeah, Dan, the below could be useful suggestions. While I allow myself to be outrageously over the top here when I spew negativity, I'M A WRITER after all, in real life, no, not meI don't do that, cuz that's the way to get a punch in the nose. I AM A COWARD by quite a few metrics even though I've had tons of times I had to step up to plates for the kids, marriage, movement etc. I have yelled from the back of political ralliesand that's maybe the height of my public bristling. After my last most seriously PTSD causing event, 13 yrs ago, it took me a solid five years of learning to not just wallow in righteous indignation, and instead, recognize my idiosyncratic tells of when I was going over the precipice of a slippery slope. Once I could see it coming, I could divert the mind instead of dwelling in a tawdry mental indulgence that could only harden the pathways in the nervous system -- that is: make it easier to fall into negativity once again. See?it was no fun being angry, but, geeze, it took me a long time to give up the habitlike booze...it had it's deliciousness, ya know? No, I don't drink or have any prescriptions for anxiety etc. Diversions are: my relationship with my babe, family, trikking, reading, writing, media, Advaita reading, etc. And on Facebook I am a posting fool -- sharing the neat stuff I find -- and allowing myself to openly hate the psychopublicans while gnashing my teeth about Obama's selling out. I have gone over some inner dark horizon now and then, sure, but it's very rare. But when I do, even then I can use last resort techniques like psychodrama -- that is, riding the emotions but with reins on the nightmare being ridden. It's fun to scream into the night sometimes, just sayin' -- not that it's all that therapeutic. A therapist, um Cynthia Fox?, had me hitting a punching bag while screaming out my complaints...and what were the results? -- sore arms and bruised knuckles. I can get triggered and be instantly into a huge surge of negativity. Yep, it can happen. So far, no fist fights, but there's a few bike riders out there who snarked at my beast enough for me to unload with a Dune Class Bene Gesserit VOICE on them...that is, I yelled at them. And it could've gone south. So there's that, and it is exactly that that TM was, to my mind, going to naturally dissolve. It didn't...obviously. And by the way, Willy reposted some of my raging on his ass, and I think it's dang fine writing. I can't remember writing most of my stuff, and almost never reread, so when I do, it's like, hey, this guy's a good writer! So THANK YOU WILLY FOR THE SELF ESTEEM MOMENT. I love my shit. So, see? I am very seldom actually having a negative emotion. Even during my writing about Willy etcI'm having the most savory narcissistic wickedness and outright CACKLING with my cleverness. Not that I'm aloof all the time. Nabby got to me the other day, you'll note, but I let loose on that response and, yes, I was having actual anger, but by the time the piece was written, I'd was in a joyous mood from all the great blurbs that had come from the inspiration. SO THANK YOU NABBY! Poke me again you wonderful shitblast me from your special perch. Get me out of bed in the morning! I've posted so much here in the last few days...just cuz of some spotlights on my egosee how I'm slurping up the attention? Gotta pull back on this horsey! Ha ha! You are a good writer. Probably the best we've had here, not that I've been here long. Annie, You read all this? What does it say. In as few words as possible. Life's short. And there's lots to do. Can I use the last 3 lines to enter the Tokyo Haiku Contest? I love prizes. First, you can enter the haiku contest, but only if it's because you don't want to show Edg up; keep your competitive motives pure. Second, what his post says to me goes past his facility with words. What I like most about it is that, at the risk of sounding like RWC, it is REAL. The guy doesn't seem afraid to let us see what he feels inside and out. I don't know him at all. Everyone else here seems to have had a history with Edg. What I do know is that he scares me sometimes with his ferocity but he has been explaining what that is - another personal revelation. But the man can wield the words and I love that. To have the dexterity to move it around like he does goes beyond the verbal. The coolest part is that for such a scary guy he lets the inside of him all hang out and you become a bit taken aback by what he reveals because it seems so deep and personal after he can be so
Re: [FairfieldLife] Re: Daveyoung - a couple of things that may help
---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, punditster@... wrote : On 9/13/2014 5:27 PM, awoelflebater@... mailto:awoelflebater@... [FairfieldLife] wrote: Even during my writing about Willy etcI'm having the most savory narcissistic wickedness and outright CACKLING with my cleverness. You probably get a big toothless grin on your face when you hit Send. Sometimes you may even get up off the sofa and shout YES! As much as I wish I had written this, I did not. Edg did. http://youtu.be/QbjfesCI254 http://youtu.be/QbjfesCI254
[FairfieldLife] Re: Daveyoung - a couple of things that may help
---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, no_re...@yahoogroups.com wrote : ---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, awoelflebater@... wrote : ---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, no_re...@yahoogroups.com wrote : ---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, awoelflebater@... wrote : ---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, no_re...@yahoogroups.com wrote : Yeah, Dan, the below could be useful suggestions. While I allow myself to be outrageously over the top here when I spew negativity, I'M A WRITER after all, in real life, no, not meI don't do that, cuz that's the way to get a punch in the nose. I AM A COWARD by quite a few metrics even though I've had tons of times I had to step up to plates for the kids, marriage, movement etc. I have yelled from the back of political ralliesand that's maybe the height of my public bristling. After my last most seriously PTSD causing event, 13 yrs ago, it took me a solid five years of learning to not just wallow in righteous indignation, and instead, recognize my idiosyncratic tells of when I was going over the precipice of a slippery slope. Once I could see it coming, I could divert the mind instead of dwelling in a tawdry mental indulgence that could only harden the pathways in the nervous system -- that is: make it easier to fall into negativity once again. See?it was no fun being angry, but, geeze, it took me a long time to give up the habitlike booze...it had it's deliciousness, ya know? No, I don't drink or have any prescriptions for anxiety etc. Diversions are: my relationship with my babe, family, trikking, reading, writing, media, Advaita reading, etc. And on Facebook I am a posting fool -- sharing the neat stuff I find -- and allowing myself to openly hate the psychopublicans while gnashing my teeth about Obama's selling out. I have gone over some inner dark horizon now and then, sure, but it's very rare. But when I do, even then I can use last resort techniques like psychodrama -- that is, riding the emotions but with reins on the nightmare being ridden. It's fun to scream into the night sometimes, just sayin' -- not that it's all that therapeutic. A therapist, um Cynthia Fox?, had me hitting a punching bag while screaming out my complaints...and what were the results? -- sore arms and bruised knuckles. I can get triggered and be instantly into a huge surge of negativity. Yep, it can happen. So far, no fist fights, but there's a few bike riders out there who snarked at my beast enough for me to unload with a Dune Class Bene Gesserit VOICE on them...that is, I yelled at them. And it could've gone south. So there's that, and it is exactly that that TM was, to my mind, going to naturally dissolve. It didn't...obviously. And by the way, Willy reposted some of my raging on his ass, and I think it's dang fine writing. I can't remember writing most of my stuff, and almost never reread, so when I do, it's like, hey, this guy's a good writer! So THANK YOU WILLY FOR THE SELF ESTEEM MOMENT. I love my shit. So, see? I am very seldom actually having a negative emotion. Even during my writing about Willy etcI'm having the most savory narcissistic wickedness and outright CACKLING with my cleverness. Not that I'm aloof all the time. Nabby got to me the other day, you'll note, but I let loose on that response and, yes, I was having actual anger, but by the time the piece was written, I'd was in a joyous mood from all the great blurbs that had come from the inspiration. SO THANK YOU NABBY! Poke me again you wonderful shitblast me from your special perch. Get me out of bed in the morning! I've posted so much here in the last few days...just cuz of some spotlights on my egosee how I'm slurping up the attention? Gotta pull back on this horsey! Ha ha! You are a good writer. Probably the best we've had here, not that I've been here long. Annie, You read all this? What does it say. In as few words as possible. Life's short. And there's lots to do. Can I use the last 3 lines to enter the Tokyo Haiku Contest? I love prizes. First, you can enter the haiku contest, but only if it's because you don't want to show Edg up; keep your competitive motives pure. Second, what his post says to me goes past his facility with words. What I like most about it is that, at the risk of sounding like RWC, it is REAL. The guy doesn't seem afraid to let us see what he feels inside and out. I don't know him at all. Everyone else here seems to have had a history with Edg. What I do know is that he scares me sometimes with his ferocity but he has been explaining what that is - another personal revelation. But the man can wield the words and I love that. To have the dexterity to move it around like he does goes beyond the verbal. The coolest part is that for such a scary guy he lets the inside of him all hang out and you become a bit taken aback by what
[FairfieldLife] Re: Daveyoung - a couple of things that may help
Even during my writing about Willy etcI'm having the most savory narcissistic wickedness and outright CACKLING with my cleverness. ---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, punditster@... wrote :You probably get a big toothless grin on your face when you hit Send. Sometimes you may even get up off the sofa and shout YES! ---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, awoelflebater@... wrote : As much as I wish I had written this, I did not. Edg did. Correction: Edg said he cackles with his clever narcissistic wickedness posts to Ann, and he might also get a big toothless grin on his face and get up off his sofa to shout YES!. http://youtu.be/QbjfesCI254 http://youtu.be/QbjfesCI254
[FairfieldLife] Re: Daveyoung - a couple of things that may help
---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, no_re...@yahoogroups.com wrote : Yeah, Dan, the below could be useful suggestions. Not everyone can admit on social media that they are borderline schizophrenic. Most people when they realize they're partly insane seek out professionals for help. Other may be in denial and don't want to get help, so they imagine themselves great spiritual teachers and/or great writers. Some people won't admit that they're only chat-room posters to social media like Yahoo! or Facebook, not really writers at all, and in reality, they've never published anything in their whole life. Go figure. Usually over-the-top hate mail is just a call for help - but FFL can only provide so much. Dr. Pete is on Facebook - he might want to prescribe something for you to take. Just keep in mind that Dr. Pete is an educator, not an M.D. So, please, ask him to wait until his class has been dismissed before he gets on the internet to make a diagnosis for you. Thanks. While I allow myself to be outrageously over the top here when I spew negativity, I'M A WRITER after all, in real life, no, not meI don't do that, cuz that's the way to get a punch in the nose. I AM A COWARD by quite a few metrics even though I've had tons of times I had to step up to plates for the kids, marriage, movement etc. I have yelled from the back of political ralliesand that's maybe the height of my public bristling. After my last most seriously PTSD causing event, 13 yrs ago, it took me a solid five years of learning to not just wallow in righteous indignation, and instead, recognize my idiosyncratic tells of when I was going over the precipice of a slippery slope. Once I could see it coming, I could divert the mind instead of dwelling in a tawdry mental indulgence that could only harden the pathways in the nervous system -- that is: make it easier to fall into negativity once again. See?it was no fun being angry, but, geeze, it took me a long time to give up the habitlike booze...it had it's deliciousness, ya know? No, I don't drink or have any prescriptions for anxiety etc. Diversions are: my relationship with my babe, family, trikking, reading, writing, media, Advaita reading, etc. And on Facebook I am a posting fool -- sharing the neat stuff I find -- and allowing myself to openly hate the psychopublicans while gnashing my teeth about Obama's selling out. I have gone over some inner dark horizon now and then, sure, but it's very rare. But when I do, even then I can use last resort techniques like psychodrama -- that is, riding the emotions but with reins on the nightmare being ridden. It's fun to scream into the night sometimes, just sayin' -- not that it's all that therapeutic. A therapist, um Cynthia Fox?, had me hitting a punching bag while screaming out my complaints...and what were the results? -- sore arms and bruised knuckles. I can get triggered and be instantly into a huge surge of negativity. Yep, it can happen. So far, no fist fights, but there's a few bike riders out there who snarked at my beast enough for me to unload with a Dune Class Bene Gesserit VOICE on them...that is, I yelled at them. And it could've gone south. So there's that, and it is exactly that that TM was, to my mind, going to naturally dissolve. It didn't...obviously. And by the way, Willy reposted some of my raging on his ass, and I think it's dang fine writing. I can't remember writing most of my stuff, and almost never reread, so when I do, it's like, hey, this guy's a good writer! So THANK YOU WILLY FOR THE SELF ESTEEM MOMENT. I love my shit. So, see? I am very seldom actually having a negative emotion. Even during my writing about Willy etcI'm having the most savory narcissistic wickedness and outright CACKLING with my cleverness. Not that I'm aloof all the time. Nabby got to me the other day, you'll note, but I let loose on that response and, yes, I was having actual anger, but by the time the piece was written, I'd was in a joyous mood from all the great blurbs that had come from the inspiration. SO THANK YOU NABBY! Poke me again you wonderful shitblast me from your special perch. Get me out of bed in the morning! I've posted so much here in the last few days...just cuz of some spotlights on my egosee how I'm slurping up the attention? Gotta pull back on this horsey! Ha ha!Get a job and stop playing around with computersGet out and vote at least for your local electionsGo see a psychiatrist for anger managementGet a life and be happy
[FairfieldLife] Re: Daveyoung - a couple of things that may help
Yeah, Dan, the below could be useful suggestions. While I allow myself to be outrageously over the top here when I spew negativity, I'M A WRITER after all, in real life, no, not meI don't do that, cuz that's the way to get a punch in the nose. I AM A COWARD by quite a few metrics even though I've had tons of times I had to step up to plates for the kids, marriage, movement etc. I have yelled from the back of political ralliesand that's maybe the height of my public bristling. After my last most seriously PTSD causing event, 13 yrs ago, it took me a solid five years of learning to not just wallow in righteous indignation, and instead, recognize my idiosyncratic tells of when I was going over the precipice of a slippery slope. Once I could see it coming, I could divert the mind instead of dwelling in a tawdry mental indulgence that could only harden the pathways in the nervous system -- that is: make it easier to fall into negativity once again. See?it was no fun being angry, but, geeze, it took me a long time to give up the habitlike booze...it had it's deliciousness, ya know? No, I don't drink or have any prescriptions for anxiety etc. Diversions are: my relationship with my babe, family, trikking, reading, writing, media, Advaita reading, etc. And on Facebook I am a posting fool -- sharing the neat stuff I find -- and allowing myself to openly hate the psychopublicans while gnashing my teeth about Obama's selling out. I have gone over some inner dark horizon now and then, sure, but it's very rare. But when I do, even then I can use last resort techniques like psychodrama -- that is, riding the emotions but with reins on the nightmare being ridden. It's fun to scream into the night sometimes, just sayin' -- not that it's all that therapeutic. A therapist, um Cynthia Fox?, had me hitting a punching bag while screaming out my complaints...and what were the results? -- sore arms and bruised knuckles. I can get triggered and be instantly into a huge surge of negativity. Yep, it can happen. So far, no fist fights, but there's a few bike riders out there who snarked at my beast enough for me to unload with a Dune Class Bene Gesserit VOICE on them...that is, I yelled at them. And it could've gone south. So there's that, and it is exactly that that TM was, to my mind, going to naturally dissolve. It didn't...obviously. And by the way, Willy reposted some of my raging on his ass, and I think it's dang fine writing. I can't remember writing most of my stuff, and almost never reread, so when I do, it's like, hey, this guy's a good writer! So THANK YOU WILLY FOR THE SELF ESTEEM MOMENT. I love my shit. So, see? I am very seldom actually having a negative emotion. Even during my writing about Willy etcI'm having the most savory narcissistic wickedness and outright CACKLING with my cleverness. Not that I'm aloof all the time. Nabby got to me the other day, you'll note, but I let loose on that response and, yes, I was having actual anger, but by the time the piece was written, I'd was in a joyous mood from all the great blurbs that had come from the inspiration. SO THANK YOU NABBY! Poke me again you wonderful shitblast me from your special perch. Get me out of bed in the morning! I've posted so much here in the last few days...just cuz of some spotlights on my egosee how I'm slurping up the attention? Gotta pull back on this horsey! Ha ha! ---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, punditster@... wrote : On 9/13/2014 11:00 AM, danfriedman2002 wrote: I'm still feeling you and want to do something useful. Here are a few other things he could do: Put the Advaita book down and get an education Get a job and stop playing around with computers Get out and vote at least for your local elections Go see a psychiatrist for anger management Get a life and be happy Here's what I'm thinking: Definitely take it easy. Enjoy your self. Do the things that you like. Do the same thing for others. Realize, that this Anger Thing is a trap...that you are not even in right now. Feel your feelings and they end. I sometimes appear to be very angry with people. People who know me know that my love for them far exceeds my momentary anger with them. It passes. I promise. Try not to act out. I know that's not easy, but you can.
[FairfieldLife] Re: Daveyoung - a couple of things that may help
---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, no_re...@yahoogroups.com wrote : Yeah, Dan, the below could be useful suggestions. While I allow myself to be outrageously over the top here when I spew negativity, I'M A WRITER after all, in real life, no, not meI don't do that, cuz that's the way to get a punch in the nose. I AM A COWARD by quite a few metrics even though I've had tons of times I had to step up to plates for the kids, marriage, movement etc. I have yelled from the back of political ralliesand that's maybe the height of my public bristling. After my last most seriously PTSD causing event, 13 yrs ago, it took me a solid five years of learning to not just wallow in righteous indignation, and instead, recognize my idiosyncratic tells of when I was going over the precipice of a slippery slope. Once I could see it coming, I could divert the mind instead of dwelling in a tawdry mental indulgence that could only harden the pathways in the nervous system -- that is: make it easier to fall into negativity once again. See?it was no fun being angry, but, geeze, it took me a long time to give up the habitlike booze...it had it's deliciousness, ya know? No, I don't drink or have any prescriptions for anxiety etc. Diversions are: my relationship with my babe, family, trikking, reading, writing, media, Advaita reading, etc. And on Facebook I am a posting fool -- sharing the neat stuff I find -- and allowing myself to openly hate the psychopublicans while gnashing my teeth about Obama's selling out. I have gone over some inner dark horizon now and then, sure, but it's very rare. But when I do, even then I can use last resort techniques like psychodrama -- that is, riding the emotions but with reins on the nightmare being ridden. It's fun to scream into the night sometimes, just sayin' -- not that it's all that therapeutic. A therapist, um Cynthia Fox?, had me hitting a punching bag while screaming out my complaints...and what were the results? -- sore arms and bruised knuckles. I can get triggered and be instantly into a huge surge of negativity. Yep, it can happen. So far, no fist fights, but there's a few bike riders out there who snarked at my beast enough for me to unload with a Dune Class Bene Gesserit VOICE on them...that is, I yelled at them. And it could've gone south. So there's that, and it is exactly that that TM was, to my mind, going to naturally dissolve. It didn't...obviously. And by the way, Willy reposted some of my raging on his ass, and I think it's dang fine writing. I can't remember writing most of my stuff, and almost never reread, so when I do, it's like, hey, this guy's a good writer! So THANK YOU WILLY FOR THE SELF ESTEEM MOMENT. I love my shit. So, see? I am very seldom actually having a negative emotion. Even during my writing about Willy etcI'm having the most savory narcissistic wickedness and outright CACKLING with my cleverness. Not that I'm aloof all the time. Nabby got to me the other day, you'll note, but I let loose on that response and, yes, I was having actual anger, but by the time the piece was written, I'd was in a joyous mood from all the great blurbs that had come from the inspiration. SO THANK YOU NABBY! Poke me again you wonderful shitblast me from your special perch. Get me out of bed in the morning! I've posted so much here in the last few days...just cuz of some spotlights on my egosee how I'm slurping up the attention? Gotta pull back on this horsey! Ha ha! You are a good writer. Probably the best we've had here, not that I've been here long. ---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, punditster@... wrote : On 9/13/2014 11:00 AM, danfriedman2002 wrote: I'm still feeling you and want to do something useful. Here are a few other things he could do: Put the Advaita book down and get an education Get a job and stop playing around with computers Get out and vote at least for your local elections Go see a psychiatrist for anger management Get a life and be happy Here's what I'm thinking: Definitely take it easy. Enjoy your self. Do the things that you like. Do the same thing for others. Realize, that this Anger Thing is a trap...that you are not even in right now. Feel your feelings and they end. I sometimes appear to be very angry with people. People who know me know that my love for them far exceeds my momentary anger with them. It passes. I promise. Try not to act out. I know that's not easy, but you can.
[FairfieldLife] Re: Daveyoung - a couple of things that may help
---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, no_re...@yahoogroups.com wrote : Yeah, Dan, the below could be useful suggestions. While I allow myself to be outrageously over the top here when I spew negativity, I'M A WRITER after all, in real life, no, not meI don't do that, cuz that's the way to get a punch in the nose. I AM A COWARD by quite a few metrics even though I've had tons of times I had to step up to plates for the kids, marriage, movement etc. I have yelled from the back of political ralliesand that's maybe the height of my public bristling. After my last most seriously PTSD causing event, 13 yrs ago, it took me a solid five years of learning to not just wallow in righteous indignation, and instead, recognize my idiosyncratic tells of when I was going over the precipice of a slippery slope. Once I could see it coming, I could divert the mind instead of dwelling in a tawdry mental indulgence that could only harden the pathways in the nervous system -- that is: make it easier to fall into negativity once again. See?it was no fun being angry, but, geeze, it took me a long time to give up the habitlike booze...it had it's deliciousness, ya know? No, I don't drink or have any prescriptions for anxiety etc. Diversions are: my relationship with my babe, family, trikking, reading, writing, media, Advaita reading, etc. And on Facebook I am a posting fool -- sharing the neat stuff I find -- and allowing myself to openly hate the psychopublicans while gnashing my teeth about Obama's selling out. I have gone over some inner dark horizon now and then, sure, but it's very rare. But when I do, even then I can use last resort techniques like psychodrama -- that is, riding the emotions but with reins on the nightmare being ridden. It's fun to scream into the night sometimes, just sayin' -- not that it's all that therapeutic. A therapist, um Cynthia Fox?, had me hitting a punching bag while screaming out my complaints...and what were the results? -- sore arms and bruised knuckles. I can get triggered and be instantly into a huge surge of negativity. Yep, it can happen. So far, no fist fights, but there's a few bike riders out there who snarked at my beast enough for me to unload with a Dune Class Bene Gesserit VOICE on them...that is, I yelled at them. And it could've gone south. So there's that, and it is exactly that that TM was, to my mind, going to naturally dissolve. It didn't...obviously. And by the way, Willy reposted some of my raging on his ass, and I think it's dang fine writing. I can't remember writing most of my stuff, and almost never reread, so when I do, it's like, hey, this guy's a good writer! So THANK YOU WILLY FOR THE SELF ESTEEM MOMENT. I love my shit. So, see? I am very seldom actually having a negative emotion. Even during my writing about Willy etcI'm having the most savory narcissistic wickedness and outright CACKLING with my cleverness. Not that I'm aloof all the time. Nabby got to me the other day, you'll note, but I let loose on that response and, yes, I was having actual anger, but by the time the piece was written, I'd was in a joyous mood from all the great blurbs that had come from the inspiration. SO THANK YOU NABBY! Poke me again you wonderful shitblast me from your special perch. Get me out of bed in the morning! I've posted so much here in the last few days...just cuz of some spotlights on my egosee how I'm slurping up the attention? Gotta pull back on this horsey! Ha ha! Dear Daveyoung, My suggestion was Do the same thing for others. Let's just stick with that for a while. ---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, punditster@... wrote : On 9/13/2014 11:00 AM, danfriedman2002 wrote: I'm still feeling you and want to do something useful. Here are a few other things he could do: Put the Advaita book down and get an education Get a job and stop playing around with computers Get out and vote at least for your local elections Go see a psychiatrist for anger management Get a life and be happy Here's what I'm thinking: Definitely take it easy. Enjoy your self. Do the things that you like. Do the same thing for others. Realize, that this Anger Thing is a trap...that you are not even in right now. Feel your feelings and they end. I sometimes appear to be very angry with people. People who know me know that my love for them far exceeds my momentary anger with them. It passes. I promise. Try not to act out. I know that's not easy, but you can.
[FairfieldLife] Re: Daveyoung - a couple of things that may help
---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, awoelflebater@... wrote : ---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, no_re...@yahoogroups.com wrote : Yeah, Dan, the below could be useful suggestions. While I allow myself to be outrageously over the top here when I spew negativity, I'M A WRITER after all, in real life, no, not meI don't do that, cuz that's the way to get a punch in the nose. I AM A COWARD by quite a few metrics even though I've had tons of times I had to step up to plates for the kids, marriage, movement etc. I have yelled from the back of political ralliesand that's maybe the height of my public bristling. After my last most seriously PTSD causing event, 13 yrs ago, it took me a solid five years of learning to not just wallow in righteous indignation, and instead, recognize my idiosyncratic tells of when I was going over the precipice of a slippery slope. Once I could see it coming, I could divert the mind instead of dwelling in a tawdry mental indulgence that could only harden the pathways in the nervous system -- that is: make it easier to fall into negativity once again. See?it was no fun being angry, but, geeze, it took me a long time to give up the habitlike booze...it had it's deliciousness, ya know? No, I don't drink or have any prescriptions for anxiety etc. Diversions are: my relationship with my babe, family, trikking, reading, writing, media, Advaita reading, etc. And on Facebook I am a posting fool -- sharing the neat stuff I find -- and allowing myself to openly hate the psychopublicans while gnashing my teeth about Obama's selling out. I have gone over some inner dark horizon now and then, sure, but it's very rare. But when I do, even then I can use last resort techniques like psychodrama -- that is, riding the emotions but with reins on the nightmare being ridden. It's fun to scream into the night sometimes, just sayin' -- not that it's all that therapeutic. A therapist, um Cynthia Fox?, had me hitting a punching bag while screaming out my complaints...and what were the results? -- sore arms and bruised knuckles. I can get triggered and be instantly into a huge surge of negativity. Yep, it can happen. So far, no fist fights, but there's a few bike riders out there who snarked at my beast enough for me to unload with a Dune Class Bene Gesserit VOICE on them...that is, I yelled at them. And it could've gone south. So there's that, and it is exactly that that TM was, to my mind, going to naturally dissolve. It didn't...obviously. And by the way, Willy reposted some of my raging on his ass, and I think it's dang fine writing. I can't remember writing most of my stuff, and almost never reread, so when I do, it's like, hey, this guy's a good writer! So THANK YOU WILLY FOR THE SELF ESTEEM MOMENT. I love my shit. So, see? I am very seldom actually having a negative emotion. Even during my writing about Willy etcI'm having the most savory narcissistic wickedness and outright CACKLING with my cleverness. Not that I'm aloof all the time. Nabby got to me the other day, you'll note, but I let loose on that response and, yes, I was having actual anger, but by the time the piece was written, I'd was in a joyous mood from all the great blurbs that had come from the inspiration. SO THANK YOU NABBY! Poke me again you wonderful shitblast me from your special perch. Get me out of bed in the morning! I've posted so much here in the last few days...just cuz of some spotlights on my egosee how I'm slurping up the attention? Gotta pull back on this horsey! Ha ha! You are a good writer. Probably the best we've had here, not that I've been here long. Annie, You read all this? What does it say. In as few words as possible. Life's short. And there's lots to do. Can I use the last 3 lines to enter the Tokyo Haiku Contest? I love prizes. ---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, punditster@... wrote : On 9/13/2014 11:00 AM, danfriedman2002 wrote: I'm still feeling you and want to do something useful. Here are a few other things he could do: Put the Advaita book down and get an education Get a job and stop playing around with computers Get out and vote at least for your local elections Go see a psychiatrist for anger management Get a life and be happy Here's what I'm thinking: Definitely take it easy. Enjoy your self. Do the things that you like. Do the same thing for others. Realize, that this Anger Thing is a trap...that you are not even in right now. Feel your feelings and they end. I sometimes appear to be very angry with people. People who know me know that my love for them far exceeds my momentary anger with them. It passes. I promise. Try not to act out. I know that's not easy, but you can.
Re: [FairfieldLife] Re: Daveyoung - a couple of things that may help
On 9/13/2014 5:27 PM, awoelfleba...@yahoo.com [FairfieldLife] wrote: Even during my writing about Willy etcI'm having the most savory narcissistic wickedness and outright CACKLING with my cleverness. You probably get a big toothless grin on your face when you hit Send. Sometimes you may even get up off the sofa and shout YES! http://youtu.be/QbjfesCI254
[FairfieldLife] Re: Daveyoung - a couple of things that may help
---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, no_re...@yahoogroups.com wrote : ---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, awoelflebater@... wrote : ---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, no_re...@yahoogroups.com wrote : Yeah, Dan, the below could be useful suggestions. While I allow myself to be outrageously over the top here when I spew negativity, I'M A WRITER after all, in real life, no, not meI don't do that, cuz that's the way to get a punch in the nose. I AM A COWARD by quite a few metrics even though I've had tons of times I had to step up to plates for the kids, marriage, movement etc. I have yelled from the back of political ralliesand that's maybe the height of my public bristling. After my last most seriously PTSD causing event, 13 yrs ago, it took me a solid five years of learning to not just wallow in righteous indignation, and instead, recognize my idiosyncratic tells of when I was going over the precipice of a slippery slope. Once I could see it coming, I could divert the mind instead of dwelling in a tawdry mental indulgence that could only harden the pathways in the nervous system -- that is: make it easier to fall into negativity once again. See?it was no fun being angry, but, geeze, it took me a long time to give up the habitlike booze...it had it's deliciousness, ya know? No, I don't drink or have any prescriptions for anxiety etc. Diversions are: my relationship with my babe, family, trikking, reading, writing, media, Advaita reading, etc. And on Facebook I am a posting fool -- sharing the neat stuff I find -- and allowing myself to openly hate the psychopublicans while gnashing my teeth about Obama's selling out. I have gone over some inner dark horizon now and then, sure, but it's very rare. But when I do, even then I can use last resort techniques like psychodrama -- that is, riding the emotions but with reins on the nightmare being ridden. It's fun to scream into the night sometimes, just sayin' -- not that it's all that therapeutic. A therapist, um Cynthia Fox?, had me hitting a punching bag while screaming out my complaints...and what were the results? -- sore arms and bruised knuckles. I can get triggered and be instantly into a huge surge of negativity. Yep, it can happen. So far, no fist fights, but there's a few bike riders out there who snarked at my beast enough for me to unload with a Dune Class Bene Gesserit VOICE on them...that is, I yelled at them. And it could've gone south. So there's that, and it is exactly that that TM was, to my mind, going to naturally dissolve. It didn't...obviously. And by the way, Willy reposted some of my raging on his ass, and I think it's dang fine writing. I can't remember writing most of my stuff, and almost never reread, so when I do, it's like, hey, this guy's a good writer! So THANK YOU WILLY FOR THE SELF ESTEEM MOMENT. I love my shit. So, see? I am very seldom actually having a negative emotion. Even during my writing about Willy etcI'm having the most savory narcissistic wickedness and outright CACKLING with my cleverness. Not that I'm aloof all the time. Nabby got to me the other day, you'll note, but I let loose on that response and, yes, I was having actual anger, but by the time the piece was written, I'd was in a joyous mood from all the great blurbs that had come from the inspiration. SO THANK YOU NABBY! Poke me again you wonderful shitblast me from your special perch. Get me out of bed in the morning! I've posted so much here in the last few days...just cuz of some spotlights on my egosee how I'm slurping up the attention? Gotta pull back on this horsey! Ha ha! You are a good writer. Probably the best we've had here, not that I've been here long. Annie, You read all this? What does it say. In as few words as possible. Life's short. And there's lots to do. Can I use the last 3 lines to enter the Tokyo Haiku Contest? I love prizes. First, you can enter the haiku contest, but only if it's because you don't want to show Edg up; keep your competitive motives pure. Second, what his post says to me goes past his facility with words. What I like most about it is that, at the risk of sounding like RWC, it is REAL. The guy doesn't seem afraid to let us see what he feels inside and out. I don't know him at all. Everyone else here seems to have had a history with Edg. What I do know is that he scares me sometimes with his ferocity but he has been explaining what that is - another personal revelation. But the man can wield the words and I love that. To have the dexterity to move it around like he does goes beyond the verbal. The coolest part is that for such a scary guy he lets the inside of him all hang out and you become a bit taken aback by what he reveals because it seems so deep and personal after he can be so ferocious! So it is an interesting juxtaposition going on there. And, beyond
[FairfieldLife] Re: Daveyoung - a couple of things that may help
I like his stuff, too - It has depth. My only unasked for advice to him, is, don't peak too soon. ---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, awoelflebater@... wrote : ---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, no_re...@yahoogroups.com wrote : ---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, awoelflebater@... wrote : ---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, no_re...@yahoogroups.com wrote : Yeah, Dan, the below could be useful suggestions. While I allow myself to be outrageously over the top here when I spew negativity, I'M A WRITER after all, in real life, no, not meI don't do that, cuz that's the way to get a punch in the nose. I AM A COWARD by quite a few metrics even though I've had tons of times I had to step up to plates for the kids, marriage, movement etc. I have yelled from the back of political ralliesand that's maybe the height of my public bristling. After my last most seriously PTSD causing event, 13 yrs ago, it took me a solid five years of learning to not just wallow in righteous indignation, and instead, recognize my idiosyncratic tells of when I was going over the precipice of a slippery slope. Once I could see it coming, I could divert the mind instead of dwelling in a tawdry mental indulgence that could only harden the pathways in the nervous system -- that is: make it easier to fall into negativity once again. See?it was no fun being angry, but, geeze, it took me a long time to give up the habitlike booze...it had it's deliciousness, ya know? No, I don't drink or have any prescriptions for anxiety etc. Diversions are: my relationship with my babe, family, trikking, reading, writing, media, Advaita reading, etc. And on Facebook I am a posting fool -- sharing the neat stuff I find -- and allowing myself to openly hate the psychopublicans while gnashing my teeth about Obama's selling out. I have gone over some inner dark horizon now and then, sure, but it's very rare. But when I do, even then I can use last resort techniques like psychodrama -- that is, riding the emotions but with reins on the nightmare being ridden. It's fun to scream into the night sometimes, just sayin' -- not that it's all that therapeutic. A therapist, um Cynthia Fox?, had me hitting a punching bag while screaming out my complaints...and what were the results? -- sore arms and bruised knuckles. I can get triggered and be instantly into a huge surge of negativity. Yep, it can happen. So far, no fist fights, but there's a few bike riders out there who snarked at my beast enough for me to unload with a Dune Class Bene Gesserit VOICE on them...that is, I yelled at them. And it could've gone south. So there's that, and it is exactly that that TM was, to my mind, going to naturally dissolve. It didn't...obviously. And by the way, Willy reposted some of my raging on his ass, and I think it's dang fine writing. I can't remember writing most of my stuff, and almost never reread, so when I do, it's like, hey, this guy's a good writer! So THANK YOU WILLY FOR THE SELF ESTEEM MOMENT. I love my shit. So, see? I am very seldom actually having a negative emotion. Even during my writing about Willy etcI'm having the most savory narcissistic wickedness and outright CACKLING with my cleverness. Not that I'm aloof all the time. Nabby got to me the other day, you'll note, but I let loose on that response and, yes, I was having actual anger, but by the time the piece was written, I'd was in a joyous mood from all the great blurbs that had come from the inspiration. SO THANK YOU NABBY! Poke me again you wonderful shitblast me from your special perch. Get me out of bed in the morning! I've posted so much here in the last few days...just cuz of some spotlights on my egosee how I'm slurping up the attention? Gotta pull back on this horsey! Ha ha! You are a good writer. Probably the best we've had here, not that I've been here long. Annie, You read all this? What does it say. In as few words as possible. Life's short. And there's lots to do. Can I use the last 3 lines to enter the Tokyo Haiku Contest? I love prizes. First, you can enter the haiku contest, but only if it's because you don't want to show Edg up; keep your competitive motives pure. Second, what his post says to me goes past his facility with words. What I like most about it is that, at the risk of sounding like RWC, it is REAL. The guy doesn't seem afraid to let us see what he feels inside and out. I don't know him at all. Everyone else here seems to have had a history with Edg. What I do know is that he scares me sometimes with his ferocity but he has been explaining what that is - another personal revelation. But the man can wield the words and I love that. To have the dexterity to move it around like he does goes beyond the verbal. The coolest part is that for such a scary guy he lets the inside of him all hang out and you become a bit
