Long but worth the read - food for thought for the entire "developed" world!!
http://www.eoni.com/~visionquest/library/confessions.html Confessions of an American Ex-Patriot It all began about a year ago. I had just finished watching the morning news over a cup of coffee, and nothing felt quite right. Having dutifully pecked the cheek of my wife with a kiss, I stood beside my sporty new car with mug in hand. The engine was purring away before my drive to work, and my favorite bumper sticker caught my eye. ?Proud to be an American? it read. I paused for a moment, reflecting upon this. For some reason it just didn?t set well, like a lunch eaten too fast. On the way to the office I was at a loss to explain, in fact, why it began to seriously irritate me. I see statements like these on countless other cars every day, and I wondered how many people think for themselves these days. Then the question arose?What are we so proud of? As I asked myself this question over and over again, I suddenly couldn?t think of a single response. So why did I have this proclamation on my bumper, if I didn?t know what it meant? Why does everyone else seem to have one too, (or a flag or sticker in the window and yard). Do they know something I don?t?? My day at work was pretty much the same as always, except for one thing. I seemed to raise a few eyebrows over lunch with my question, ?Why are you proud to be an American?? The immediate reactions were about the same as mine. There was also obvious irritation about being asked a question to which everyone is expected to know the answer. Each person I asked had no immediate response, and their confusion reminded me of my own. But then to my relief the answer that was provided one way or another, was something to the effect of??Well, we?re a free country. We?re a democracy, and the people decide how they want to believe, and you know, that?s a lot better than any place else in the world, right?? But my sense of relief at this answer did not last. I kept the thought that came to mind secret, which was, ?Yeah, you?re free to believe whatever you want, so long as it?s politically correct?. Recalling recent events and the sorry shape the world is in right now, such responses seemed very shallow. They sounded like tape recordings being played on cue. It was a little eerie how everybody answered in the same basic way, using the same words I?d heard on television so many times. It would be interesting to know if everyone would talk differently if the television and newspapers were taking a different stand. I suspect they would be. When I got home that evening, I made my wife nervous by talking about how the last presidential election was a farce. George W. Bush is president today, but not by a vote of the people. I said, ?Yes, don?t you remember?nobody ever talks about this now, as though it?s ancient history. But George W. was put in office by the Supreme Court, while the recount of votes in Florida was actually prevented. How can a court decide who wins the presidency in a democracy? She did not seem to appreciate my new fascination with being politically incorrect, and offered no answers. Afterwards, other questions arose in my mind. If we?re a democracy, then why is it that the important decisions of running this country and how our tax dollars are spent, are rarely a matter of public knowledge, let alone votes? Do we really live in a free country or a police state? Are we really promoting democracy around the world as the television claims we are, or are we just installing puppets who do our economic bidding? I thought of recent police suppression of demonstrations in Seattle, Portland and elsewhere. Images of pepper spray, riot gear, Nazi insignias, and countless people in prison cells filled my mind. I thought about how the Justice Department locks people up indefinitely now, without charges, even if they are American citizens. Bank accounts are frozen and lives are destroyed, just because George and company says they have ?ties? to so and so. Our words speak of ?nation building? but our actions speak more loudly of. nation destroying. I remembered hearing how the CIA meddles in governments the world over, staging armed rebellions and the like, yet without a single vote from the people involved. How does one establish a democracy by installing puppet dictators who are on the CIA payroll? I thought about the ?Patriot Act? which makes wire taps, e-mail interception and house searches without warrants ?legal?. So much for the Bill of Rights. I considered how it?s becoming more and more accepted that neighbors report each other to the government for ?suspicious behavior?. What is ?suspicious? behavior anyway, not wearing green on St. Patrick?s Day?? How will this new ?Homeland Security? office be used against our citizens? Perhaps it should be called ?The Office of Suspicious Behavior?. I thought about college professors being fired and receiving death threats, for teaching that we should critically examine how our Bill of Rights and Constitution are being trampled on by recent legislation. We?re told, ?we have to give up our liberties for the sake of our protection?. How is giving up our sovereignty and freedoms protecting us from anything, and why does one have to come at the cost of the other? The more I thought about such questions the more uncertain I became about how ?proud? I am to be an American. I certainly want to be proud, don?t get me wrong. I would like nothing better than to believe that my government is just and honest, that it represents the people who pay for its existence, (taxpayers) and which is a force for good in the modern world. Yet it?s pretty clear that our government is no longer for the people, but for money interests. Ours has become a government by and for the corporations, and as such how can it be a democracy? The general attitude today seems to be that the people exist to serve and obey government, rather than the other way around. Media exists to condition a response rather than to just inform. Isn?t a government that has this attitude a parasite? I was raised in an upper middle class family, attended a private school for ?gifted students? and have an excellent academic record. I hold Masters degrees in business administration and psychology, having firmly believed that such accreditation is essential for ?success? in this wonderful, modern world of ever-increasing standards of living. I was employed for many years in a significant middle management position at an electronics firm based in Dallas Texas, making in excess of $85,000 a year. My wife and I and our two children, lived in a 5 bedroom, 3500 square foot home, in an excellent neighborhood. Yet through all these years I was never truly satisfied, and didn?t know why. I didn?t know anyone else who was satisfied either. After giving the whole thing some thought, I?ve come to the conclusion that our society is moving in the wrong direction. It glorifies greed as the supreme goal in life, and egotism as the norm for social interaction. I honestly can?t think of any other reason at this point, why anyone would even desire more than they need to live well. But all that is changed now. The more I?ve learned in fact, the more I realize the world isn?t going to last very much longer at this rate.... In the weeks following my initial ?political incorrectness?, I did some research on the internet, and at the library. My mind was really opened by all this information, but even more so by the implications of what I was finding out. The following statistics are fully verifiable; As of August 2001, the national debt has risen to the astronomical figure of over 6 trillion dollars. That?s 6000 billion! I asked myself, ?Good God! Where has all this money been spent? If we?re supposedly the richest nation in the world, with the highest standards of living, then how can we possibly owe 6000 billion dollars?? If we?ve spent this much money, then why is the quality of life for most people continuing to decay? That sounds like monumental mismanagement to me. This debt I?m told, increases by an average of 1 billion, 111 million dollars a day! As it is now, a child born tomorrow will be born into debt to the amount of $21,438! Mind you, this figure only reflects the national debt. If one were to figure in state, county and city debts, the amount owed by a newborn today is well over $100,000! And the government has the nerve to criticize or penalize corporations for their mismanagement of funds? Almost as much money is spent on paying the interest to this incredible sum, than is spent on the military! That?s right, we all pay interest on this debt, in the form of increased taxes and loss of social programs. I read in the paper recently that budgets have been cut so drastically, that grade schools can?t afford construction paper, sufficient teachers to fill positions, or even to fix their own computers. Social welfare programs are evaporating like desert ponds in summertime. The elderly can?t afford their pills, consumer debt is at an all-time high, and thousands get laid off every quarter. Meanwhile, corporate scandals rage on, with a predictably higher level of corruption than ever before to the tune of tens of billions. Political campaigns and ?political contributions? run into the tens of millions of dollars, while the local library can?t afford to buy new encyclopedias. I wonder if it ever occurred to most people that while we?re spending these astronomical sums on the military and government, we?re spending less on what matters in life. Why are all the state budgets so strapped? Because the government is no longer there for the people, that?s why. Proud to be an American? Yeah, proud like a armed robber, leaving another bank with an armful. There?s been a lot of talk about attacking Iraq for months, and yet another war is not far away. Why is it we always seem to be in a state of war? The ?debate? rages on, not so much as to why we should attack, or what right we have playing policeman, (or God Almighty) to the rest of the world. We seem to assume that the whole world is ours to do with as we wish, while punishing those who dare to manage their own affairs. We hear congressmen screaming for blood, and a president who consults ?legal advisors? as to whether or not he can go to war without the approval of congress. Of course, there is a high public approval rating for all this, if the news is to be believed. You know, it?s really fascinating to watch such events with an attitude of detachment. If for instance you had just arrived on this planet and knew absolutely nothing about ?the war on terror?, how would you perceive the American attitude? Try that mental exercise and see where it leads. In any case, we?re told by the media that it is our dire need to immediately attack Iraq in a ?pre-emptive strike?, before they attack us or anyone else. Because Iraq possesses, or might possess, ?weapons of mass destruction? we should do away with Saddam Hussein. Hmmm. I guess that means it?s OK for us to attack them, since we are morally perfect in every way. It?s our self-assigned role on this planet to define right and wrong, after all. So while it would be ?evil? (i.e. George Bush?s ?axis of evil?) for them to attack and kill us, it is ?good? for us to attack and kill them. When ?they? kill it?s called ?terrorism??when we kill it?s called ?establishing democracy?. Continuing on this line of reasoning then, it?s called ?murder? if anybody else kills, but if we do it, it?s called, ?preventing murder?. Confused? I should hope so. If this makes sense to you I suggest you look up the word ?hypocrisy? in the dictionary.. Imagine if our legal system adopted this same reasoning. Picture the police driving around shooting and killing anyone on the street who, ?looks like they might commit a crime? or who, ?appears to have an interest in buying a gun? thereby preventing murder, rape and other atrocities.. ?Justice? could then be dispensed at the humble price of a bullet, rather than messy court proceedings and the silly presentation of evidence. If we have such a foreign policy, devoid of all due process, UN approval or international court proceedings, then why not adopt such a policy at home? That seems to be where we?re headed. Everyone is assumed to be guilty until proven innocent, assuming that is, you are even allowed to see a lawyer behind closed doors, after the police beat you when they?re sure no one has a camera aimed in their direction. Also, if by merely possessing or hoping to possess, ?weapons of mass destruction? a country deserves to be bombed and occupied, then almost all the countries of the world will have to be leveled flat. What about Russia, Canada, China, France or Great Britain? Hey, for that matter, what about US? Nobody has more of these weapons than we do, and nobody has sold more of them to other countries than we have. Oh, that?s right, we can do that because we?re ?God?s chosen?. Isn?t this the official line? Well, what other excuse can one offer? We spend about 300 billion dollars a year on the military budget, not counting the cost of wars and preparations for war. This is far more than any country, anywhere, in the history of this planet. That?s enough to completely transform the environment and world poverty, in one stroke. It?s not hard to see where our priorities are. Proud to be an American? Am I proud about the bombing of Afghanistan or Iraq for weeks on end, and at the cost of a billion dollars a day? No, mass murder is not something I cherish, nor is it a hobby of mine. I?m not convinced that the Afghan people had anything to do with the events of 9-11. Nor am I convinced that Iraq deserves to be singled out for execution, as a ?bad guy? with a black hat, amidst a sea of pearly white morality the world over. And what?s this about ?IF? we go to war with Iraq? Don?t our warplanes bomb Iraqi targets on a regular basis, even as we speak? Recently there was an ?Earth Summit? held in Africa by the United Nations, attended by most of the countries of the world, with the notable exception of the president of the United States. This is no surprise, since as a country, we?ve also pulled out of the Kyoto Protocol regarding greenhouse emissions, and several other environmental treaties. I guess ?green? isn?t good for business. Bush and company have reduced clean air and water standards, increased logging and mining, given big businesses billions in government subsidies, (free handouts) calling that an ?economic stimulus package?, while the Environmental Protection Agency receives less than one percent of the national budget. Again, it?s all a matter of greed, not concern for future generations. Did you know that out of the 6 billion people in the world, over one billion don?t have clean water to drink, and two billion don?t have access to adequate sanitation? Four billion don?t have running water. Two billion don?t have electricity. 1.6 billion people are poorer now than they were 15 years ago. Did you know that one billion people live on about a dollar a day, while we consider $20,000 a year underpaid? I didn?t. Americans comprise 5% of the world?s population, and yet consume 30% of its resources. Does this make us moral and good? A child born in the US will use 5-20 times the amount of energy of their counterparts in the developing world, by the time they live to be 75. The 20% of the world?s population which has the ?highest standards of living?, consumes 85% of the aluminum and chemicals of the world, 80% of the paper, iron and steel, 75% of the timber and energy, 60% of the meat, fertilizer and cement, half the world?s fish and grain, and 40% of the fresh water. At the same time they will generate 96% of the radioactive wastes, and 90% of the ozone depleting chlorofluorocarbons. (source; Presidents? Council on Sustainable Development). Millions of third world children die of disease and malnutrition every year, and our concern is how to make the next car payment on that luxury sedan. Meanwhile the World Bank and International Monetary fund, (in which the US plays a central role) squeezes the poor even further with ?austerity measures?, so they can keep making their national interest payments. It?s not hard to realize how the lack of the majority, is directly proportional to the relative greed of a privileged few. How many acres of forest, tons of coal and metals, megawatts of electricity and square feet of sweat shop labor, did it take to build that fancy house of mine in Texas? Or that fancy new car? How much pollution was created to make and sustain these things? I didn?t NEED a NEW car to get from one place to another, and we didn?t NEED a modern mansion to live happily. But then I guess ?happy? isn?t the point any more is it? The very thought makes me nauseous in the realization that I contributed to all that, for the sake of ego. And all this is what is called ?success? and ?getting ahead?. It sounds more like failure and falling behind to me, when it?s considered in the light of spiritual values. Calling this consumerist way of life, a ?higher standard of living? sounds nice, but another name for it is endless selfishness. The more money people have in this culture the more they want, (and the bigger house and more expensive car that goes along with it). They complain about not having enough, no matter how much they have. But that?s not because they don?t have enough, it?s because they waste what they have. The more they have, the more they waste. And I confess that I too believed THE GREAT LIE that ?more is better?. I believed that a person who owns expensive things is a better person, someone to be admired. But now I realize this is only a very shallow concept. Only a misguided and selfish person spends their whole existence accumulating more than they need, at the expense of lives and the children of tomorrow. Only a base egotist thinks that they must live to impress, while hiding their real face underneath a façade of ?things?. My training in this culture made me a glutton, an egotist and a fool. I admit this to the world now. What a relief it is to be honest! My humanity as a soul, and as caring person, has opened my eyes to a more sane lifestyle. Proud to be an American? Proud to value egotism and image, over practicality and reality? The US spends 6 billion dollars annually on education, and 8 billion for cosmetics! Any television ad should prove this point to you. People buy things not for their practicality but for their image?.in other words, they aim to show off, which reminds me of small children trying to show ?who?s got the best toy? in the sandbox. That?s pretty sad. If this is all life is about, then no wonder people are committing suicide in increasing numbers. Never again for me. The American Dream has become a nightmare for the world and for ourselves. And whatever happened to just being truly happy and fulfilled, by living an uncomplicated life? Americans are, for the most part, an unhappy lot. They don?t look healthy, they thrive on soap operas and romance novels, laugh nervously, smoke cigarettes, eat junk food, talk non-stop trivia and need to take pills just to experience some sexual appetite. In fact, we?re becoming more unhappy by the minute, if one is to understand what statistics and simple observation are revealing. We?re taking more Prozac, Zantril, vallium, alcohol and a million other antidepressants than ever before, because of what they?re calling ?chronic stress syndrome? or ?chronic depression?. Our children are on Riddlin for the same reason, and 20 years ago that would have been unheard of. We?re a nervous and suspicious people, never missing a chance to dial 911 at the slightest provocation. We?ve got more people in prison per capita than any other country in the world, and we?re the most ?medicated?. It?s politically correct to call all this a ?chemical imbalance? but the fact of the matter is, our lifestyle and materialistic values are KILLING us. Our young people are suicidally depressed. Grade school children carry knives and guns to school. Do you suppose there?s something wrong with society, rather than with these kids? You bet. We fully expect to surgically remove this stressed organ and that diseased tissue, and maybe our lives will be extended, (though not improved) another five years. And you know what? We count on being diseased and incapacitated after 30 years of hard labor in the 9-5, (or is that 8 to 6?) routine. That?s why it?s common to believe that we each need a million + dollars saved up, to survive our self abuse in the nearest rest home. We?ve become wage slaves who never question what it?s all for. What is all this ?success? for anyway? So that somebody, somewhere, some day might somehow admire you as a great person, when deep down you know it?s all just a façade? We supposedly work for all these material ?conveniences?, yet there is nothing convenient about living 30+ years according to a job description. We?re destroying our minds, bodies and planet to accomplish nothing more than an extended hospital stay. I?ve noticed that some people I?ve discussed these matters with call such statements ?negative?. But is the truth ?negative? or is it simply true? Is an ostrich safe just because it sticks it?s head in the sand? We all sit in front of television sets like zombies. Televisions have become our closest companions, instead of other people. And people will watch anything, as an ?escape?. If we?re so ?successful? then why is it that all we want to do is escape? Our mental lives are like those of soap opera characters concerned only with game show trivia. Our intellectual standards have sunk to a point where no one even asks ?Why?? any more, and no one questions anything. The words ?truth?, ?logic? ?honesty? and ?reality? aren?t even in our vocabulary. No one dares speak them because of the responsibility they might imply.. Everyone has ?their own truth? as though truth is whatever you want to make up. We don?t really talk to each other any more. It?s only polite smiles and small talk, as though there isn?t anything more important to talk about. We care more about our petty emotional distress and what product to buy next, than we do for the planet, which is being destroyed as we speak. We care more for what goes into the engines of our cars then our own bodies, while spending more time taking care of the lawn rather than working out. Don?t you see? Image has become far more important to us than substance. Our lives are like a fancy box with exquisite wrapping paper and bows, but with nothing inside. Wars are spoken of so casually that you?d think killing another ten thousand or so, had no more relevance than a change in the weather. Perhaps less. Every 20 minutes the world population goes up 3500 people, one species of plant or animal is destroyed forever, and the average American gets fatter. We?ve become the Feared, rather than the Just and the Trusted. And does anybody really care? No. I?ve noticed that such topics are considered impolite. People react to such subjects like they would the plague. We?ve become the tyranny and war mongering imperialist which the writers of our Constitution sought to change. The Revolutionary War was fought over such issues, but the people have forgotten what freedom really is. They?ve traded their responsibility and freedom for a false sense of ?security?. To quote a famous dictator; ?Beware the leader who bangs the drum of war, In order to whip the citizenry into a patriotic fervor, for patriotism is indeed a double edged sword. It both emboldens the blood, just as it narrows the mind. And when the drums of war have reached a fever pitch And the blood boils with hate And the mind has closed, the leader will have no need of seizing the rights of the citizenry. Rather, the citizenry, infused with fear and blinded by patriotism, will offer up all of their rights unto the leader, and gladly so. How do I know? For this is what I have done. And I am Caesar." Julius Caesar Nobody really wants to change how they live, even though they don?t enjoy life. Why is this? Because we?re all secretly terrified at what we?ve become, and feel powerless to do anything about it. But in reality that?s no excuse. The world situation isn?t going to magically improve itself without intelligent realism. Obviously it?s time for a fundamental change of how we view life. Consumerism, militarism and materialism just don?t work. Yet I don?t personally know of even one person who will admit that there?s a problem, let alone actually change for the better. I realized that in our culture, when someone asks ?what do you do for a living?? they don?t mean how spiritually you live, how socially conscious you are or how you have contributed to the real progress of the human condition. What they mean is, ?What job do you have and how much do you make??. It all boils down to dollars. They ask this so that they can determine how worthy or unworthy you are to be in their company. If you want to understand ANYTHING about our domestic or foreign policies, just ask ?Where?s the money?? That will tell you everything you need to know about when, what, how, where and why, anything occurs as it does. Young people are encouraged to go to college, but I notice that the motive for this is not personal enlightenment, the improvement of the human condition or the understanding of life. It is for one simple purpose, and that is to gain more ?earning power? as a showpiece on your resume?. It?s interesting how we?ve reduced all the knowledge, spirituality and Universal Truth to the lowest common denominator?dollars earned per annum, as though God himself is nothing more than The Cosmic Banker, and Reality is summarized perfectly in the pages of tax returns. Materialism and consumerism are eating us alive, just as we are ?consuming? the whole planet. Why shouldn?t consumers, after all, not consume each other as well? In the end, that?s exactly what?s going to happen. Already the countries of the world are fighting over what little is left, while people starve by the millions the world over. Proud to be an American? I?m not a consumer, worms are. I believe that this is a very demeaning thing to call oneself, and to call others. And I no longer worship the dollar as God. So I guess that excludes me from the club. I know, I know, it?s ?unpatriotic? to talk that way, which means of course, that the truth itself has become unpatriotic. I guess the universe will just have to change to suit our whims, ay? I?ve become disillusioned with ?the American Dream? and all that it supposedly stands for. Although I care about the people, I care less and less for governments bent on conquering the world to get their oil, and anything else that isn?t tied down. I?m no supporter of unprovoked war, or war for profit. But disillusionment is good?the word means; ?no more illusions?. I don?t believe in raping the earth for dollars. I no longer blind myself to the impact of lifestyle on the world situation.. I no longer believe that just because everybody else is doing it, that this makes it OK. It?s not. After realizing all this over a period of months, a bought a packet of razor blades from the hardware store, and scraped off my ?Proud to be an American? bumper sticker in disgust. I?m not proud of any of these things, and frankly, it would be an embarrassment to be identified as an American if I were traveling abroad. I quit my corporate job because I didn?t want to be a wage slave any more, for people who don?t care about anything but money. And yes, they?re being investigated by the SEC also, while my former co-workers and I lose our 401K pensions. I broke up with my wife who still, ?plays the corporate game?, having realized that she loved my money more than she loved me, something that is taken as commonplace these days. When I visit my children, I try to explain to them why mommy is so stressed out, and never has any time for them, (and never did). I tell them that there?s a better way to live beyond ?happy pills?, that?s natural, simple and inexpensive. I live and travel in an RV converted van now, spending not even a hundredth as much as I once did to live well.. In this way I?ve gone from ?living to work? to ?working to live?. The apparent irony of this is that I?ve never been happier, healthier or wiser. I only wish I?d realized all this sooner. I refuse to pay any more taxes for endless wars, and trillions in national debt, while scoundrels sit in places of government power. Give unto Caesar what is Caesar?s? NO way. Death and destruction is what is Caesar?s, not my money or my children?s lives.. I?m taking responsibility for the truth now, rather than trying to live the absurd fantasy of the American dream. It?s like waking up from a nightmare you?ve been trying to outrun. It feels really good. I dearly hope the reader of this message will do the same. Yours truly, A caring American Concept by: Matthew Webb [EMAIL PROTECTED] The World Mind Society (http://www.eoni.com/~visionquest) _______________________________________________ Biofuel mailing list Biofuel@sustainablelists.org http://sustainablelists.org/mailman/listinfo/biofuel_sustainablelists.org Biofuel at Journey to Forever: http://journeytoforever.org/biofuel.html Search the combined Biofuel and Biofuels-biz list archives (50,000 messages): http://www.mail-archive.com/biofuel@sustainablelists.org/
