Speech given on 12/16/2004 at Ramsey County Citizen's Advisory Council 
Legislative Breakfast:

Good morning and welcome to the Wilder Child Development Center. My name is 
Mary Vanderwert. I'm the director here but I also chair the Children's Mental 
Health Subcommittee. It is our mission to ensure that all children in need of 
mental health support receive the services they need. More on that later, but 
right now, I want to introduce you to Matthew. Matthew is one of the children 
in our care. He is going to tell you his story. Here's Matthew.

"Hi, I'm Matt. I'm 5 years old and I go to school here. Long ago, before I was 
born, my mom was living with my 3 sisters and my dad. I could hear them 
fighting sometimes and then Mommy would drink a lot. That hurt me - sometimes 
it made my head hurt. But when I was born, they were very happy! Mom even 
called me her "little man". They tried to take good care of me when I was 
little, but Mom was still drinking so sometimes when I cried, she got mad at me 
and other times, no one ever came to me. That was confusing for me so I cried 
even more. Sometimes I felt like no grown ups were there for me. I learned that 
I wasn't really important to them so sometimes I didn't even bother to cry at 
all. But when I did cry, I cried so loud and so long that they had to listen to 
me. I learned I had to take care of myself even though I was really little.

When my mom had to go to work, I went to child care. The center had nice 
teachers but I didn't know that then. I knew I had to make a ruckus at home to 
get attention, so I figured I had to do that here too. So I tried all kinds of 
things to see if they would get mad at me or if they would take care of me. I 
would throw temper tantrums and they would hold me tight. That felt really 
good, but I just couldn't settle down for a long time because I just wasn't 
sure that I could trust them and I just felt so sad. And then there were all 
these other little kids who wanted my toys. So if they got in my way, I just 
hit them or pushed them down. Eventually they all left me alone.

Then one day my dad didn't come home. Mommy said some other people shot him. We 
were all very sad. I don't understand why my sisters get to have daddies and 
mine had to die. It just makes me mad.

My teachers started to worry about me when I was supposed to be learning to 
talk. I knew some words that they didn't like but I didn't talk very much. I 
knew that it was better to not listen to grownups because sometimes it just 
hurt my feelings to listen so I didn't do what they told me to do. When they 
tried to make me, I would get really mad and call them names and sometimes I 
would yell for an hour or more before I decided to do what they told me. They 
didn't understand that I needed to find out who I could trust before I could 
listen or learn. I just couldn't sit still and listen to them. Sometimes I felt 
so confused and shaky inside that all I could do was cry and scream and throw 
stuff. One time I threw a dinosaur at my speech therapist and cut her eye. She 
never came back to see me again.

And all those other kids I had to be with all day. I didn't trust them either. 
They were the reason I didn't get to do anything I wanted. I had to wait in 
line with them, I had to share and take turns and I HATE that. Aso when new 
kids come in, I stick my chest out like this and get real close to them and 
show them my big fists so they know not to mess with me. But I really want to 
play with them because they look like they are having fun. I just don't know 
what to do!

So they called in a child helper they call a psychologist to watch me. She told 
my mom I had ADHD and maybe Fetal Alcohol Syndrome. She wanted my mom to take 
me to special doctors and to get help for herself too. But my mom didn't 
believe them - and besides she just got a new job and couldn't take time off to 
take me places.

I'm going to kindergarten next year. I'm trying to get ready. I can write my 
name and I am listening better because I know I am safe. But what will it be 
like when I go to school? I know I will have to test my teachers before I can 
trust them. It took 3 years in my child care to trust my teachers. There will 
be more kids there too. Will I have to fight for attention? I know I will have 
to make my chest big a lot to make sure they don't mess with me. I told you I 
had a hard time making friends. It took 4 years in child care to have friends. 
And I've never been good at learning because I had to protect myself instead of 
paying attention. Will they get mad at me if I don't get it? I'm kinda scared.

I'm just a little kid. I can't make big important decisions like you can so I 
am counting on you to think about me when you decide how to spend our state and 
county's money. Please think of me then. Okay, I gotta go now. Thanks for 
listening."

Matthew's story is not all that unique. There are many more stories like him in 
our center and in our schools all over our county. Little kids are not like 
rubber bands. When they are stretched by stress or abuse or lack of care, they 
don't ever return to their original state. Children's mental health can 
determine their success or failure in their development and in their lives. 
Without intervention, kids like Matthew end up in truancy situations, violent 
episodes, delinquency or with self destructive behaviors.

Another story is not unique in our community. There are many children who are 
born with the propensity for mental illness which is purely biological. They 
could have the best, most nurturing set of parents in the world and still have 
mental illness. And it will be a challenge for them for their whole life. If 
their parents are astute or the professionals around them know the signs, many 
children could be diagnosed in infancy. With early treatment and consistent 
treatment, these children could have a good chance for success in their life.


Whatever the cause of mental illness, children need teachers who are available 
to them and are trained to create the best environment for their learning. They 
need a network of people who can hold them accountable for their behavior, they 
need specialists who can work with them to process what is happening to them, 
teacher them new ways of coping or prescribe medications, and their parents 
need education and support.


Ramsey County has proven itself to be a county that cares about the mental 
health of its children. There are some services available to children in crisis 
and some ongoing case management for children but county staff are overwhelmed 
and can not do it all. There is a need for more professionals who are trained 
to work with children. Our schools need mental health professionals available 
to all children and teachers. Families with histories of abuse need support in 
learning new ways of treating each other. Our law enforcement professionals 
need to know what mental illness looks like in children and our whole community 
needs to know more about children's mental health and to start talking about 
how to promote optimal health in our children instead of avoiding the topic or 
blaming parents.

Children's mental health is important to our whole community but most of all it 
is important to Matthew. If Matthew loses out, we all lose the potential of his 
life. Won't you please remember him as you work with your colleagues in moving 
our state forward?

Thank you again for being here this morning.

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Ren�e Jenson
Como
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