[TMIC] I love all of you.

[Grace]

You have all been so very kind to me.   Thank you so much for the emails, the love, the support and the very good advice.  I've been struggling.  Today I was able to tell our two trauma specialists, where my head's been these last days---and yes they understand, and no, they aren't going to haul me away to  the hospital.  Instead, they are looking for a good therapist for me.  One that's objective, hardnosed, and won't pull any punches with me.   My anger at the unfairness of this damned disease has slowly turned to despair---and that is something that they tell me is normal in order for me to come full circle.  In the event that I become too overwhelmed, and my thoughts become too dark, or too confused, I am to phone them, night or day, and they'll be here.   Oh you are a group of the most wonderful friends.  You are the one good thing that has come from my having this disease.  I know that you all have struggled and wrestled with your thoughts in just the same way that I have---and if I could wrap all of you in my arms and hold you close and safe forever, I would.  There are  just no words.   I love you, Grace