In a message dated 10/20/2007 4:21:10 PM Eastern Daylight Time, [EMAIL PROTECTED] writes:
to no longer feeling like being a contributing member of society Alton, Don't you recall after first being dx'd w/TM, feeling out of place in the world? I sure did, still do sometimes. I cannot describe myself by the same parameters as I did before, therefore, I did not know where I fit in. Because I had had a long, successful career at making women feel better than before they came to me, and now, in a heartbeat, I could no longer do that, I didn't know what to do, where to go, etc. I had always easily excelled at whatever I wanted to do. Now I could only sit in my wheelchair and do nothing, not even shower myself. I guess everyone has their own viewpoint and have to learn their own way to a different life, but I do not think it' s easy. My whole easy life became based upon fear and not knowing what the hell to do with it. I have too many women who write me telling me thank you for looking out for them...the "newbies" so I know the feelings of trying to sort through all of the new feelings of inadequacy do truly exist. I'm happy that you did not have to go through the hell I have gone through for the last six years. When I came into the Club there was a certain Ohio someone who watched my back and pretty much showed me the ropes. I will forever thank her for helping me. And, there have been plenty of others along the way...including you, sir. So thank you too and join the rest of the clan. Every one of you has helped me in one way or another over the longest six years of my life. That's all I was trying to do, got thanked for it...now let's move on. Lessons are learned every day. I love you all, Jude ************************************** See what's new at http://www.aol.com
