Hi Heather,
Thanks for sharing; your post makes a lot of sense. I always read your posts
with interest because you make matters resonate on a personal level and help
to put things in perspective.
This is the first time I hear the story of RMS having to say that someone he
loved had just died in order to feel that he would be allowed to grieve.
I can see that one of the most powerful antidotes for those feelings is to
become proactive and do something constructive about it. I read it from
SuperTramp's response and I read it in ADFENO's post as well. Being able to
focus one's energies positively is a way to overcome the frustration and I
suppose also to find people who think alike.
Finally, I don't know how old you are or anything else about you, so take
these as words thrown to the wind...as long as we're alive there's always
time to turn life around. Like any big task, the most difficult bit is
getting started and managing to keep focus long enough for things to start
changing. I've seen it happen before. The worst fear about saying it's too
late (or you're too old) is to find yourself saying it again 5, 10, 15 years
later and realizing that it was in fact quite early.
I don't mean to lecture you. You always sound intelligent and capable, please
don't take the above as condescension.