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On Wed, Jun 22, 2011 at 9:54 AM, Colleen Peltomaa <[email protected]>wrote:
> ************* > The following message is relayed to you by [email protected] > ************ > > As I continue through the CCH4 I notice some rather rude and rough > low-toned valences coming off at the beginning. Continuously there has been > layers of unconsciousness and yawns until finally I hit a spot wherein I > realized that the unconsciousness somehow served me and was somehow also a > sensation to experience. Lots of computations revealed to myself. > > In between the sessions I did start to notice more and more that I could be > in present time better without that fog of unconsciousness that I am so used > to experiencing. > > I still have a difficulty in spanning my attention units out into a wide > sphere of my environment, and I still have a problem handling too much > motion, but I do notice that it is improving. > > After hours of running to date, I finally got to the point where I decided > that I could get control and just decide to be awake and aware instead of > unconscious. It could be more a conscious decision now. > > In last night's session we ran into a "strong" valence and I was able to > recognize it for what it is and let it run its course. At the end of the > session I saw that it would be no problem and no concern for me to duplicate > the auditor's motions "forever". In fact, "forever" seemed like nothing to > me, so I guess boredom got flattened along with some other things too. > Suspect more of the strong valence needs to be run out. > > It appears that running the CCH4 this way takes apart a long-time strung > together what LRH called in "The Clearing Congress", the "synthetic > personality". > > I never audited through the Grades or any serious TRs courses, etc. Just > two years of R3x and so I really appreciate what I am experiencing now. > > The "capper" of course is completely running out the To Know games matrix. > > This morning I woke up at dawn very wide awake and I realized that all of > my fears are imagined as I scanned the things that I could be afraid of, had > been afraid of, and I wanted to somehow help others to see this as a fact > too. > > This is complementary with my timebreaking sessions running out junior > packages and lessening importances and compulsions and getting a bigger > picture of life. Well done ! > The usual disclaimers: Running CCH4 this way may not produce the same results for others. Everybody has a different postulate structure. I seem to have gotten more gain out of doing TR's than from Objectives, although I got excellent results from both. I told you about my viewpoint going partially exterior while on TR0 with Jim Faloney. It'll be interesting to see how you can do TR0 after the CCH's. Either way, it's all good. One pragmatic test would be to see how long you can just be there without doing your grocery lists, et al. With more TROM, it all gets better towards simplicity. (Sorry, I'm getting too discursive). Love you always, Aarre > > best, > > colleen > > _______________________________________________ > Trom mailing list > [email protected] > http://lists.newciv.org/mailman/listinfo/trom > >
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