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I took Alberto's advice and started mocking up negatives and here is how I do it:
The first instance was that upon reading a new law I felt overwhelming suppression, and so I said to myself, “mock up suppression”, did so, and then put it around me 360. Yawns, release, and kept doing it until cheerfulness returned, with the bonus cog of, “oh, I'm creating it all myself,” coming from a perspective that everything that happens is within my own mind, my own field of consciousness. Alberto also alludes to that in the email he sent me, which I posted. Dennis states in two places (the manual and on the Dissociation tape) that people tend to fixate in one of the To-Know goal sets, and that most on this planet are in the To-Be-Known goal set, followed by the To-Know goal set. He also explains in the manual the particular motivator/overt of each goal set, with rejection/infliction being the favorite of the To-Be-Known'ers. Throw in vengeance (negative goal sets such as rape, drugging, and violence) and there you have the individual and the planet: sex-drugs-violence. Since I seem to be weak and sporadic doing timebreaking, I decided to really make RI work for me. Using the above data I have been mocking up my favorite motivator and overt (rejection/infliction) and doing a 360. I start by giving myself the command, such as “mock up rejection” and then 360 it. The purpose is to satisfy the motivator fear and hunger. Alternately, the overt of infliction. Here I am dealing with the good sensations that come from experiencing another's overwhelm, and thus I can see why this cycle can be so addictive, sensation being the paymaster. It is easier for me to confront the motivator hunger than it is to confront (and thus give up) the sensations derived from “nicely” overwhelming that “not-self” terminal over there. Try it yourself, and I believe you will see what I'm experiencing, seeing it for yourself. I see no other way, short of doing Level 5a, to make a dent into a very fixed way of being which I recognize severely limits me, and, believe me, I do see my whole life scan by whenever I have a good run at RI, doing it this way. The funny thing is that I think I came into this body as a To-Know'er, being a loner and forever reading books and living at the library, and I will get to work on that particular motivator/overt set too. Or, perhaps it was a thought of, “well, if I can't be known, then I will just know,” due to living with a suppressive To-Be-Known'er. I have not taken a good look at that yet. I have also found Alberto's advice about doing perceptual RI to be correct too, especially if you are convinced in the moment that there is a multi-dimensional scaly monster taking particular interest in you (tsk, the things to-be-knowners will do in order to be known). cheers! Colleen
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