Dear Vortexians,
Given a set of circumstances which have come upon me in the past few
weeks, one death, another to imminently die, and another wasting away
with Lou Gehrig's disease (amyotropic lateral sclerosis), plus a loss
through the above death of almost all contacts or potential contacts
within the scientific community, particularly where they would involve
propulsion researches, I find the time has come to bid you all farewell.
I do not take the decision lightly. I'm also not looking for sympathy.
Given what some think of me, in any case, it would be sympathy for the
devil. Some others here might not feel so harshly :) It's been a long
and interesting ride, and I will miss it. I'll miss science as well.
I've found that I cannot work on it any more without feeling a
depression such as I have never experienced before. So close to some
interesting things, and yet, here I am.
I've tried to point people quietly in directions that may hold some
promise of interesting findings, mostly off-list. The lifter is a dead
end, and the Biefeld-Brown thing is so muddied by now that there is no
use trying to deal with it. By now, there are a million different
versions of what it is. I guess in some ways the internet helps, and in
others, isn't so grand. Ironic that the free exchange of knowledge can
help to conceal itself, and spread fictions in the name of truth.
There are far too many people I would like to thank for their time, if I
miss your name, please know that it was not intentional.
John Steck, always liked your posts, nice to hear a simple reasonable
message every now and then.
Michel Jullian, had a grand time discussing the Lifter/Borbas thing.
It'll be in my mind as the last great hurrah I had in this enjoyable,
detestable, thrilling, maddening, uplifting, heartbreaking, and all
together baffling line of work: reactionless propulsion.
Horace Heffner, loved your posts. Not much of a theory man myself, I
just do the experiments for the most part, but I enjoyed your posts.
Don't give up on 45 degrees.
Dr. Mitchell Swartz, though your posts were few and far between in more
recent times, I read and enjoyed them all. Good luck in your work.
Fred Sparber, never always understood everything you were getting at,
but that's OK, your posts gave me something to read and unwind to after
a long day at the shop or in the lab.
Jed Rothwell, we never agreed on much, but I guess that isn't so bad; a
world where everyone agrees would be pretty damned boring. Keep up the
LENR-CANR work, and best of luck to all of that.
R.C. Macaulay, keep up the work at the Dime Box saloon ;)
To all who are championing alternative energy, keep it up. I hope
someone among you can make it work.
Last but certainly not least, William Beaty. You are in my opinion a god
among men for putting all this, Vortex, Freenrg, Amasci, etc. together
and keeping it going after all these years, and putting up with so much
for so long. God bless you for making a few of my years interesting end fun.
A few have emailed me privately and asked what I'm all about. Who I am.
Well, I understand I am somewhat contradictory at times. It comes with
the territory I suppose. So, here's me:
A mechanic, who longs for the days of the simpler auto's. A scientist,
who just maybe saw the things in the distance, but can't quite reach;
I'm just too tired. A writer at the moment, take your pick of political
intrigue, science fiction, comedy, dark introspection and a few things I
stole (with best of intentions, of course) from the wonderful anime
people. A former artist, who enjoyed drawing a good landscape or a
comic, but who no longer has that ability due to a hand injury. An
environmentalist (surprised?). Possibly a vegetarian at some point, I'm
leaning that way, but damn if I don't love a good BBQ. A spiritual man,
who finds that I don't fit into the standard mold of religion.
Mostly, I am a dreamer. Maybe that, and hating the turns my life has
taken is what drove me to turn to writing. To paraphrase something Jimmy
Buffet said, about a friend who "could not find his place in the 20th
century", if I just choose to live in a fantasy world, "What in the
hell's wrong with that?"
God bless you all, have good lives, and Don't Fear the Reaper.
Adios, amigos.
--Kyle Randall Mcallister
