So, human are we? *L*
Reading those tirades directed at pudgala (who I keep wanting to call
pingala - which led to an interesting Wikipedia foray...), I felt only
compassion for both of you. Who knows how these words were received.
Perhaps with an open heart. The lack of reply, speaks volumes. I was
also reminded of the often erratic behavior of some of the more
memorable figures in Zen history...
But enough pleasantries, on to practicalities:
The impact/memory of that particular smell, never fully passes. Enough said.
Whiskey? Yes, a poor choice. I'd go with Tequila. Once that was gone,
Sake would do.
Try long walks. Ghosts & demons bore easily and tend to wander off.
Many, are too stupid to find their way back. Where you are though, might
have to go out under the desert moon to avoid the hellfire of desert
noon, but there are other demons about at night...
Zen makes no promises, so none can be broken.
K
On 7/19/2012 4:36 PM, Joe wrote:
Group, and Moderators, I am sorry for my behavior here of late. My
irrational outbursts after the recent pudgala post were not only
irrational, but extremely unwise. I am sorry!, All. And sorry!,
pudgala. i wish I could delete those "replies", those attacks.
Moderators, Bill, Ed... please ban me or moderate my posts, if you will.
But I will promise that this will not happen again.
I discovered a dead body, and was extremely upset by this. It was a
neighbor, a 70-year old reclusive man, in his house. Afterward I admit
I drank excessively. I could not get the stench of the 3-week
passed-away cadaver to leave me, it seemed, despite Whiskey. That
error, of drinking, was stupid enough, but then I compounded it by
being online, and writing anything. I cannot bear to read those posts.
But I understand if they cannot be deleted.
I express my regrets and contrition for my terrible and imbalanced
behavior. I am so sorry, All.
--Joe
