> An Indian Renunciate's story of life close to > Ammachi in Amritapuri I met Mata Amritanandamayi, > when I was 14 and joined the organization at > around 20... > So, I wonder, what was the original impulse that convinced you to be a spiritual teacher? Was it the Amritanandamayi, the organization, the people, or the efficacy of the sadhana?
If the latter, what changed about your experience to cause you to no longer want to share the enjoyment with others? In short, why would an experience, that can't be described in words, be the impetus for you to dedicate almost thirty years of your adult life to it's propagation? It must have been a very, very powerful experience. So powerful in fact, that you're still talking about it now, even ten years after you supposedly quit the cult! Maybe you're just highly suggestible. Maybe you wanted to find God, or you wanted to start a new religion. But, that's not something you would want to do if you thought the sadhana was just a very good relaxation technique. What's up with that?
