Dear Merla,
Try putting the board into the Light. Try weaving a violet flame eight (like
the infinity symbol) around you and the others, three times with the violet
flame between you and the others. Try meditating and asking your guides to
speak with their guides or asking that this be done in your sleep.
It also helps sometimes, to forget your conditioning and speak up for
yourself. Then again, there may be karmic reasons for this behavior toward
you. Or perhaps she speaks with all women this way. From your description,
it sounds like she just wants to prove she's a good 'ole boy like the rest.
Or trying to be the alpha male ('er female).
Perhaps you should try Don Miguel Ruiz's Four Agreements and NOT TAKE
ANYTHING PERSONNALLY. And remember, not all elders really deserve your
respect, but compassion is a good thing to cultivate here. She obviously is
threatened by you and I say good for you sticking around in enemy territory.
Maybe you can enlist an ally to join the board so you are not the lone
dissenter?
Then again, you can always enlist the Light workers on this list to send you
prayers and protection! Let us know when your next meeting is so we can send
help on the spiritual plane.
There's a long history on this planet of humans' inhumanity to other humans
(as well as all sentient life for that matter!). Patriarchy is only the
current fucked up system for which we have history recorded . And we know of
all the wonderful things done this past several millenia in the name of
Patriarchy, Religion, etc. I think those in the consensus reality who scream
and berate the loudest right now are subconsciously aware of how much they
have to lose, of how much ground they have already lost.
Lastly, don't give in to fear and anger. Examine why this woman
treats/affects you this way, only examine it with your heart and not your
ego. Relinquish your attachment to how hurtful she is and soon she will lose
power over you altogether.
You wrote: "I am emotionally programmed to respect my female elders".
Reprogram yourself to respect yourself first.
Blessings. Love and Light to you in your good work.
Jane
----- Original Message -----
From: "Merla" <[EMAIL PROTECTED]>
To: <[EMAIL PROTECTED]>
Sent: Monday, February 04, 2002 11:00 AM
Subject: Re: FWD: Richard K. Smith: Do you still believe in the tooth fairy?
Jane, I am straight, but often feel oppressed by patriarchy when practiced
by
man or woman. I also think that having to spell out man/woman or woman/man
is
a big bother. Right now, my nemesis on the Weed Board is Jean who is older
than I am, who wears shorts and a stetson to meetings and who has been on
the
board the longest. She is the president of the local chapter of the Farm
Bureau and is really a formidable adversary. She will put her face as close
to
mine as she dares, glare into my eyes and harang me about something that I
haven't even done in front of everybody to show her dominance. She pulls
strings shamelessly behind the scenes. I am emotionally programmed to
respect
my female elders and have a hard time dealing with this in an effective way.
I
don't have any emotional space between complete quietness and angry,
stuttering
overreaction. It's easy for me to answer a man, but I really respected my
mother and I haven't stood up to Jean effectively in public yet. At the
moment
I'm getting an exaggerated cheery tone in meetings. Things I am angry about
are: not being informed about meetings and public weed events, being left
out
of the Minutes, being lied to.
Everybody on the Weed Board is pro-herbicide except me and I'm considered to
the left of all the certified organic growers because I am politically
active.
I liked your creative approach during the demonstration. I need good humor
and
good ole common sense and American values to reach these people. On Feb.
11, I
have to convince the Weed Supervisor and the Weed Board to turn loose of the
money from a cost-share grant to me to buy 15 units of Pfeiffer Field Spray
and
one of Hugh Lovel's field broadcasters. All these people are in
kindergarten
as far as organic farming is concerned. Any creative suggestions?
jsherry wrote:
> interesting choice of words...
>
> jane
> ----- Original Message -----
> From: "Merla" <[EMAIL PROTECTED]>
> To: <[EMAIL PROTECTED]>
> Sent: Friday, February 01, 2002 12:24 PM
> Subject: Re: FWD: Richard K. Smith: Do you still believe in the tooth
fairy?
>
> RKM's essay is too nihilistic for me, though it is well taken. Even
> when I am feeling depressed by woman's inhumanity to woman, I breathe in
> through my 7th chakra and (snip)
