Dear Amy I can fully understand how you are feeling and I hope the mass in your breast turns out to be benign. You need this to be fully investigated and I am sure the doctors will look after you well. Your wbc at the moment is top end of normal range, so try not to worry too much, it may go down again. One thing I have learned since Richard was diagnosed is not to take one blood test result as being indicative of things going wrong. Sometimes, even at the best cml centres, the machines can give wrong results, if you are feeling unwell or have a fever, your wbc can increase, there are several factors to consider apart from the the worst case scenario. Don't feel guilty for feeling as you do, it is natural. All I can add is that you must get the breast mass investigated properly, but believing it will be benign is important. It is easy to say this, and I know I get worried about Richard's results, but try to take one step at a time and not worry about what may be. Try to live in the now and let tomorrow take care of itself, as long as you are getting the expert investigations and treatment you need. We are here to support you. Sometimes words are just not enough, but I have found they help me, especially when they come from people who know what you are going through. So, take a deep breath and try to deal with things as they come, rather than wondering what if..... Sending lots of love across the water Annette in the UK ___________________________________________________________________
--- In [email protected], "Amy B." <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: > > > Hey everyone, I went to my oncologist and gynecologist today. They > both felt a mass in my right breast. I have been doing well with the > gleevec, or so I thought. My WBC are at 11.5 also, they usually stay > around 8. SO, I'm a little concerned and letting my mind overwhelm > me. I know that I need to have faith and think positive but darn I > just can't help but be a little scared. I'm so tired, I just don't > want to do this anymore. I keep reminding myself that God will only > give me as much as I can handle, but I'm not thinking I can handle > anymore. I'm in a pity me mode, and keep running through my head all > I have given up already and for the first time since I was dx with > cml am wondering why me. There are so many out there that have it so > much worse so not only am I feeling all the above, but I feel guilty > for feeling bad about it, and feeling guilty for not just letting it > go and letting God deal with it. I can't balance any of it today. > My mind is screaming "I'm to young for this crap." Well so much for > the age advantage <smile> Thanks for listening. > > > Amy in Lubbock ------------------------ Yahoo! Groups Sponsor --------------------~--> Help save the life of a child. Support St. Jude Children's Research Hospital's 'Thanks & Giving.' http://us.click.yahoo.com/0iazvD/5WnJAA/xGEGAA/8zSolB/TM --------------------------------------------------------------------~-> New! Sign up for local CML support group meetings in your local community at http://cml.meetup.com Apply for Commercial Real Estate loans online and submit your deal to dozens of hungry lenders in just minutes. Loan programs for all types of business and commercial real estate. Apply anytime at http://realestatezoo.com CML (Chronic Myelogenous Leukemia Support List) --------------------------------- Part Of CMLHope.Com An International Community Of CML Patients For more information: http://cmlhope.com Post Message: [email protected] Subscribe: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Unsubscribe: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Change To No Mail/Web: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Change To Digest: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Change To Email: [EMAIL PROTECTED] List Help: [EMAIL PROTECTED] CML Group Web Site http://groups.yahoo.com/group/CML Yahoo! Groups Links <*> To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/CML/ <*> To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] <*> Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to: http://docs.yahoo.com/info/terms/
