I should also surreptitiously record my therapist, against his request, and tell him that I am doing so when I start. I think this would be good therapy for me.
On 2/23/21, Karl <[email protected]> wrote: > You guys all need help. Coderman and cecilia probably need a lot of > help. Razer likely too. I don't know who else is in your community. > > It's my job to keep track of you guys, since nobody else is. I have > no idea how to do that, but I'll probably remember about it a little. > > On 2/23/21, Karl <[email protected]> wrote: >> When you have to dissociate wildly to survive, if you struggle enough >> you can learn to go to places associated with freedom. You don't >> really know what to do when you go there. You may not even remember >> why you are there. And obviously your slavers will have messed the >> place up by the time you get there, unless you kill them first. But >> you know it's good to be there. And you know if you keep on going and >> thinking, that you'll eventually figure it out. Maybe there's >> somewhere better to go. >> >> My therapist doesn't let me record. Neither does the one he >> recommended. And he discourages me from talking to other therapists, >> and said he needs a record of whether I am on meds or not. I should >> find a better therapist. I should also talk to the advocate more. >> >> And I should hang out in an anarchist community that's real. They're >> all used to being messed up anyway. >> >> On 2/23/21, Karl <[email protected]> wrote: >>> [draft draft draft] >>> >>> cleanup worker / formerly gov worker, to >>> experimentation-victim-leading-secret-megacorp: >>> [let's go to rebel/spy cafe, we always hang out there] {was boss's >>> orders, but given by a rebel} >>> >>> [[amnesia around most of this]] >>> >>> oh! this is the galaxy we sent the bacteria to! the real live galaxy! >>> another life [human expderimentaiton victim] part squeals in >>> excitement: workaholic!!!!! >>> [uses cigar-likeness to blow smoke in the face of mind >>> controlled state worker and tells them to inhale. worker is relaxed >>> to be among boss again, at rebel cafe.] >>> >>> a casual encounter immediately obeys the victims, who occasionally use >>> "superpowers" in ways that are similar to normal things but very wrong >>> in order to handle their truama (like morphing into a chair with a leg >>> missing to hide at being talked to and politely greeted, or levitating >>> something that would normally be manually manipulated to make a >>> relaxing enviornment similar to recordings of relaxing environments] >>> >>> [rebel cafe-goer treated the mush of organs like a charismatic >>> human being they wanted to immediately please] [after >>> obedience-to-vivisection-victim-relation with normal rebel cafe-goer, >>> vivisection victim tells mind controlled state worker]: "nobody can >>> see us and everybody obeys us because we used to be boss's >>> augmentations." >>> >>> [scene switches to cafe topic] >>> >>> [when dictatorsoft is engaged, the vivisection victims perform the >>> work with their body, suddenlyt acting like personal servants and then >>> reverting to whatever htey were doing, with nobody minding or >>> noticing] >>> >> >
