i'm experiencing inhibition around my coping strategy of spamming the list to move forward on goals.
one reason for this strategy is to store a log of my behavior. something highly valued when there is a lot of amnesia in one's life. another one is to support pretending to spam and disrupt the list, which seems to have had energy behind it in the past. with the wim hof showers, they were maybe a little too personal for something, and i seem to have stopped posting them temporarily, but i am still doing them. i associate holding a reason in my wind when posting them, as helping me do them: i focused on how i stopped doing them, last time i stopped posting. and holding this, i've been able to use some of the inhibition energy to keep doing them, a little. we'll see.
