Re: [FairfieldLife] Re: still no clue about Maharishi

Mon, 02 May 2005 11:14:46 -0700

I consider myself a tantric. That to me means that I take no prisoners of my ignorance. It's kill or be killed. I consider myself a 'stream enterer' which is to say that having had the glimpse of the direction I feel I know the way. I need noone to tell me anything more. That doesn't mean I'm 'enlightened' per se, but just that I know beyond doubt what 'it' is. That's fairly useless info for you. But very useful for me, as I have seen all my goals change. It also means that my words are compelling if often senseless. Because I say the same thing over and over and over, but just in different ways. Simply, it's all God, it's all divine, there's no yesterday was this, and tomorrow is that. It all simply is, perfect. Of course, not being fully awake this comes and goes. But being a tantric I can make out the light even in the dark, the perfect even in the imperfect, I can find the Goddess literally within my mate during sex, and also within myself. It means I am Shiva even when I take a shit. It means I can say I am Mahakali and not feel wrong about it, because you are Shiva and Mahakali too. I see no contradictions anywhere, because real contradictions destroy each other and cease. I also see that this wont change tomorrow or the next day, because my mind has been permanently ruined beyond repair, and neither jail, nor torture nor the psyche ward could change that reality for me. Because I burned all my bridges to there and then and there's no return to some other place of 'normality.' There's nowhere to go for me but more here.
 
As awakening grows I find it more incredible that people still run around pursuing the most nefarious ends. If it would stop war I would offer my head in a second. In fact I would relish the chance to make such a change. It's not humility but understanding. The understanding that no matter where you are there you are. If one had to wait to be divine then in the present human state such a reality could never come about because people like to pick their noses, they like to eat meat, they like to fondle little kids weenies.  People are fucked up. Luckily no such things really matter for the divine, because it's all divine. No. Such things only matter for the lords of karma. One hopes that when the mirror of god is face to face with one then they won't be squeezing little kids weenies. Because awakening while in the midst of negativity can be very hellish.  Yes, the more awareness brought to hellish conditions the more hellish they feel. Best to clear out the hells first. But if they can't be cleared then intention to do so is very important. Lack intention to help and you sink. That's really bad if you're awakened. The worst thing imaginable would be to be fully realized and then sink to the bottom. That can only happen through lack of intention to benefit.   
 
The only chance to make things better comes from realization that we are here because we are on the level. Waiting for someone someday to come and save one is foolish, or so said Buddha, who I respect and admire. He died because he didn't want to hurt the feelings of the man who had only rotten pork stew to give him. He ate it, and buried the rest so others wouldn't, and a week later he died.   In other lives he gave his arm to a starving tiger, and once killed some robbers to save them from killing a boat load of people, thus saving them from their own evil nature and saving the others from that evil nature. The intention to benefit is what there is. Chagdud Tulku said, that Atisha said, that of the Buddha's 84,000 methods for acheiving the transition from ordinary to extraordinary mind that they come down to the essential point of good heartedness. Now some people just don't have that - the Jeffrey Dahmers of the world. But that neededn't change our hearts. Before desiring liberation one should desire a good heart. If that's there then all else will follow, because the divine is already.  Now grab a mirror and do your beard or hair, because there is nothing to fear, and you're already here.
 
If this is a style then let it be called a tantric style. I thank whoever coined that phrase. I dedicate it all to better days.
 
 
 
----- Original Message -----
Sent: Monday, May 02, 2005 12:13 PM
Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: still no clue about Maharishi

oh ok, I see now.
for the records the other day someone noted that you write in a
tantric style, but I guess it was just a tease on his part. anyway I
thought that such style really exists and that I'm not familiar with
it, I believed it to be some non-linear writing and it was
interesting to someone who is spiritually challenged as I am.
anyway this is where my comment came from, and Thanks for clearing it.

--- In [email protected], "Llundrub" <[EMAIL PROTECTED]>
wrote:
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> RJ, could you elaborate on the tantric writing style you were/sre
using.
> did you make it up or such thing exist?
>
>
> ---Not sure I get your meaning. I write. Because it feels good and
as most of the arts they come out of the poor trying to lift up the
mud and give it shape. Emulating Promethius I guess. Thanks. I think.





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