Re: [FairfieldLife] Re: The Kaplan Money

[Llundrub]

Only really during the last few years I have developed an inner voice. It tells me what I am doing. It's really weird. When I just really gave up then I found that I did have a real personality. I stopped trying to be and do anything realizing that all my long sought after plans were out of my control. Rather than engaging discursive thought and always having some internal buzz of noise, instead I have found that in silence I hear things very well, and I also have many answers including when I don't have the answers and then what I must do to get them.  For instance I fed my birds a bit of a bagel with cream cheese. I did it out of guilt of them basicallly not having their freedom. And inside as I was walking towards them my mind is speaking loudly, you're not doing them any favors giving them table food, developing their liking for diverse foodstuffs so that they lose the taste for the simple healthy things that they should eat, and so on. These were the real words of wisdom coming through. I gave them a piece anyway, but a much smaller piece just to keep them guessing and interested in the gifts of living.  What's my point? I guess it is that if one learns to have some faith and let go then the real truths come naturally and effortlessly.   I guess this started when I finally had worked through most of my internal conflict. Otherwise there would be too many voices to pay attention to. At any rate I probably have made what Crowley called the connection with the HGA.  I recommend to all others to lose their conditioning as well so that your voice comes through. It's really pretty wonderful to find your own voice in this world going on three thousand years of the Dark Ages. It also doesn't really depend on anyone or anything outside of your own aggregated persona. Crowley was really a rather profound individual. May we all develop the still inner voice of knowing and leave internal conflict behind. To subscribe, send a message to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!' Yahoo! Groups Links To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/   To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: [EMAIL PROTECTED]   Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to the Yahoo! Terms of Service.