Glad it worked for you. Just curious, do you still do TM? As far as the uber benchmark goes of witnessing sleep, I prefer to just sleep when I am asleep (ha-ha), though since letting go the thought of Maharishi as infallible recently, I've been sleeping much better. Waking state has also improved...
--- In [email protected], "Alex Stanley" <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: > --- In [email protected], "jim_flanegin" <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> > wrote: > > Thank God those hellish free-falls don't last forever, > > huh? > > Nope, in my case, only about a year. A year of trying to fix all the > shadow stuff before realizing that all I was doing was seeking yet > another magic pill to fix all the shadow stuff. Then it really sank > in that this is how I show up and how I'll likely always show up, and > that THERE IS NO MAGIC PILL! That precipitated about three weeks of > near suicidal depression from which I emerged in a state of > self-acceptance that I'd wanted and waited for for 30 years. > > On the finite, dual-mind side, my experience was textbook embodied > awakening per Waking Down teachings; I'm now vastly more aware of my > internal human dynamic. However, at this point, I see it only in > terms of having affected the thin ego/personality mask called John > Alexander Stanley. But, as long as I'm going to have some > identification with that mask, I may as well be comfortable with it > and have a rockin' good time. > > Is Awakening, i.e., the big "E" to follow? I don't know, and I kinda > don't really care. I either don't grok concepts of enlightenment or I > latch on to conceptual fragments, so there's not much point in pining > away for that which I don't get in the first place. I'm better off > just being innocent and in the moment and letting things unfold and > happen as they may. Besides, I have no desire or intention of > achieving the kind of spacey, disembodied, dissociative state needed > to achieve that �ber-benchmark of enlightenment, the witnessing of > sleep. So, I'd never be anything more than "so-called awakened", > anyway. > > <shrug> I can live with that. > > Alex To subscribe, send a message to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!' Yahoo! Groups Links <*> To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ <*> To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] <*> Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to: http://docs.yahoo.com/info/terms/
