On Dec 5, 2007, at 9:49 PM, new.morning wrote:
But having one's perspective flip out may explain some things. And if there is no doer, what is left but "reaction". (oh yes, "God's Will") (Not to be confused with God's willie, thats another topic.) Some dark nights may be depression -- low, or easily quelched, serotonin and dopamine levels. Some awakened / dark night behaviors appears similar to manic-depressive cycles. If samadhi is death, the perhaps we should have called it Transcendental Suicide. A big draw for Sylvia Plath and Goth chicks. That would be an interesting mix among the drama queens. Do some have Boogie Nights instead of Dark Nights? Seeing FFL as a forum to "argue" with those who have a different perspective sort of explains a lot. Seeing futility in others views, and Perfection in one's own, perhaps is a dark night.
Here's a style of meditational disorder seen in someone who has a vajra-nadi awakening, often precipitated by practices involving siddhis or magical practices:
"When a person with a rising through Vajra nadi is attracted to and excited by something, Kundalini Shakti rises and activates brain centers, which improves brain function but is followed by neurotransmitter deficits. Due to the instability of a rising through Vajra nadi, there are fluctuations in the experiences the person has. At times they may be brilliant and at others despondent, depending on the current location of Kundalini Shakti in Vajra nadi. Fluctuations may be precipitated by stressors or inspirations or may seem to vary of their own accord, cycling at varying speeds. Grandiosity and ego inflation contrast with the inevitable crash. Some men, in particular, with risings through Vajra nadi feel they do not function well without sex or substances due to the neurotransmitter deficiency caused by their rising, which is temporarily increased with these behaviors. To assuage the discomfort of the more difficult experiences, the person may turn to substance abuse, sexual indulgence, and other forms of acting out and driven behavior. These behaviors may become habitual coping strategies leading to obsessive-compulsive behaviors and addictions. In addition, the person may have a fascination for the occult, as occult methods would more easily yield skills in a person with a rising through Vajra nadi. Adherence to an ethical code thereby becomes more difficult. They may also become greatly attached to their talent and fall into despair when the muse mysteriously leaves. Vajra rising people can be marvelously creative and insightful and tragically afflicted with egoism and insatiable drives that undermine their success and survival.
If a person with a rising through Vajra nadi works to remain spiritually focused and moderate in living, however, their symptoms can be blessedly less remarkable, and they can more easily achieve a diversion. Healthy, disciplined spiritual living always helps a Deflected rising. Here the term "spiritual" is defined as virtuous and devotional, without fascination for special abilities or psychic, healing, astral, or occult skills or interventions and with a devotional acknowledgement of a Higher Power. Spiritual paths, including twelve step programs, emphasize the importance of these qualities. When there is disinterest in phenomena and surrender to the Higher Power, spiritual life can blossom, and a new, balanced source of endorphins becomes available."
Joan Harrigan, Kundalini Vidya
