As any casual reader of FFL life might notice I am gay for both Judy and Turq. Mortal enemies, but not of mine.
Turq first. Somehow early on, a feeling of brotherhood. We both "got" each other and decided to vote "yes." Actually we voted "Fuck yeah!" That has given us what sound guys at my gigs call "head room." We allow each other a lot of room for me to be a cynical bastard and for him to have experiences that I have not had. Or for him to be a cynical bastard about some things and for me to be a complete douche. It works. I am in cyber love. Many of the very things that give Judy a rash are things which I dig about Barry. (skillfully switching identities) I love consistency which is why I also love when a person serves me a dose of inconsistency. I get that I need that like a vitamin. Why I am Gay for Judy? Not the most obvious cybermatch since I spent about a year an a half NOT getting her. I don't even care about her part of this mismatch, my own realization was all that it took to straighten out the problem. I didn't "get" Judy and now think I do. I don't have the same "bro" ease with her as I do with Turq. I don't know if the next post will bring down the rain of Judy anger. But for now I am her fucking fan. Because some of the distinctions she has drawn have really helped me draw my own. And she will play ball intellectually and I love her for that. It is a different gay love than I feel for Turq. WTF is "gay" love. For a hetero dude it is the kind of love that you don't have with a romantic partner. It is Socratese's "Agape." So I dig Judy and Turq for different reasons. I check in to their match to keep up, but I am not keeping score. Both of them nourish my experience here in different ways. And each seem to accept that I dig them both for different reasons. So for all the ragging about Turq and Judy banging on each other, I have one comment only: If it keeps them here to interact with, I vote "fuck yeah!" I mean it. Fuck yeah! I am gay for both of them and not afraid to admit it on indexed Google reality!
