--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "Kirk" <kirk_bernha...@...> wrote: > > What sort of clarity do you wish for?
The clarity deals with my own situation, which I am working on. You said everyting was going well for you until you watched your Dad die at age 8. Then it sounds like you started "acting out", as they say. So, I guess that, as in many cases, you had difficulty processing this event, and therefore dealt with it in a different way. That is all. I believe this is a common scenario. What I am curious about, is that if, say, one has a childhood which seems nearly perfect, or at least not marred by any abuse, or major event like you experienced, and one starts to come up on some addictive tendencies as an adult, where might the problem lay. > > I recall my father's death perfectly. I could go into details but I am not > sure what value it would have for you. It did fuck up my entire life and it > took me at least thirty more years to process and see the results. Though > the results on my motivation were instantaneous. I had been a perfect 'A' > student, of course we're talking about up to third grade. At that time I > took a nosedive and my grades went down and I became more 'punky.' > > The 'narcissistic' sense of 'entitlement' continued through my actions and > was a sort of carrier of my angst. It wasn't until witnessing destruction of > my city that my sense of change became overwhelming and rather > incapacitating for me. I no longer feel a sense of 'entitlement' whatsoever, > not after watching my best friends entire way of life permanently displaced. > I was watching him cry yesterday. > > He's epileptic and had seizures recently and was banned from work until he > get's a doctor's slip. Anyway, that was a couple weeks ago, or more like a > month, and he can't get a doctor's slip, and now he is going to be evicted. > So now I am watching my best friend, and one of the few people I love move > away. > > Sorry I'm rambling. Loss. I was being 'narcissistic' about my loss. Maybe > not. Anyway, fuck me. I'm tired. Happy St Patrick's Day. > > > ----- Original Message ----- > From: "lurkernomore20002000" steve.sun...@... > To: FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com > Sent: Monday, March 16, 2009 10:05 PM > Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: BBC News Online: Warning over narcissistic > pupils > > > > "Kirk" kirk_bernhardt@ wrote: > >>I was quite spoiled as a small child - with attention - breast fed, >large > >>family, I also had three older sisters , grandmother living >across the > >>street. I was very much feeling - entitled - until I >watched my father > >>die when I was eight. Everything changed. > > > > Would you care to elaborate? I am in the process of examining my > > childhood, which I remember as only very ideal, to try to find some clues > > to some adult issues I am presently dealing with. > > > > As well, my wife's dad died when she was just a baby, and that, naturally > > has played a significant role in her life. > > > > But I can recall no such event, yet I have issues that I am trying to get > > some clarification on. > > > > Thanks > > > > > > > > > > ------------------------------------ > > > > To subscribe, send a message to: > > fairfieldlife-subscr...@yahoogroups.com > > > > Or go to: > > http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ > > and click 'Join This Group!'Yahoo! Groups Links > > > > > > >
