Thanks. Advice doesn't work in New Orleans. My two best friends - which I made over many many years have left the city. Not much advice can be given. One left about two years after Katrina, the other just this weekend. For someone rather unmotivated such as I - much of which I attribute to some bullshit belief system that I picked up at MIU - no advice is the best advice. Or tip a bottle. Thanks to everyone however. I am not suicidal and never have been. Unless you consider my going to MIU and my present huge amount of student loans with no appreciable source of income - suicide.
As for the meds, they are having their effect, but they are not taking me to where I need to get. I have troubles with eating. I don't like to eat. I eat one meal a day. I get famished but with no appetite. I am the one who needs a personal chef. I stopped smoking pot the last few days. Now instead of smoking a bowl and staring at the walls or finding something stupid to do, now I just stare at the walls. I have no motivation. At least with my friends I could do stuff for them, drive them around, have a few drinks, pretend I was part of the human race. Commiserate with the nonjudgemental, who didn't feel superior, with loads of vapid advice, never even having met me in person. ----- Original Message ----- From: "feste37" <[email protected]> To: <[email protected]> Sent: Monday, March 23, 2009 8:41 PM Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: Despondency > Interesting how people feel compelled to offer Kirk advice. He didn't ask > for it. He just made some statements about his own life. He didn't ask > anyone to tell him how to change it. > > The only thing I will say is, I hear you, Kirk! > > --- In [email protected], "John" <jr_...@...> wrote: >> >> Get back to your meditation program. You'll never know what surprises >> are kept for you. >> >> >> >> --- In [email protected], "Kirk" <kirk_bernhardt@> wrote: >> > >> > This is the first action I am engaging in today. >> > My best and only friend moved away. >> > Jobs suck. >> > My wife is extremely busy. >> > I suck. >> > The sooner I die the happier I will be. >> > You all enjoy your trite fun and games. >> > Woohoo Judy and Barry - what a great time. >> > >> > Whatever. >> > >> > > > > > ------------------------------------ > > To subscribe, send a message to: > [email protected] > > Or go to: > http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ > and click 'Join This Group!'Yahoo! Groups Links > > >
