like a troubled 9 year old boy. you could live a more dignified and meaningful life, its not about psychiatric drugs
--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, Ravi Chivukula <chivukula.r...@...> wrote: > > Will do, but I have been playing with my 4 year old niece for the past 2 > days. We had so much fun that you have grossly underestimated my maturity. > > The existence is fulfilling one more of my last desires of taking care of a > baby girl and I just can't explain how much fun I have had with her. My > sister-in-law's sick, so there's pain, sadness, happiness, bliss, laughter > all thrown in...I took care of my niece and we walk around aimlessly around > parks, the whole apartment complex that has a beautiful trail, waterfalls, > trees, birds, animals, everything is so alive. Malden, Mass is verily heaven > on earth for me now. I have done so much in 2 days I wouldn't be dependent > on anyone anymore for my joy, I'm just sharing my joy here in equal measure, > you just don't have the heart to feel it. I can tell her some tall tales and > she returns the favor in equal measure..LOL..she is such a joy, so innocent > that I had to post it. Hope the parents don't read it and get mad at me. I > learned it from my brother who makes up as he narrates, the story becomes so > exciting and unpredictable and I was impressed. Everyone is a guru that > teaches me, stories are more fun that the inane discussions we have here. > What is a story is lost on me. > > Am I a yogi? Guru? Bipolar? Schizophrenic? brother, uncle, husband, lover, > partner, father,..roles are lost, I make up as I go - I just don't know who > I am and so keep reminding me so I can keep taking you for a ride..LOL... > > Dil ke Surkh Diwaaron Pe Naam Hai Teraa Naam Hai Teraa...I have your name > engraved in the bloody walls of my heart..... > (The word "Shukra" is in this song, shukra -> surkh -> red -> bloody) > > I can leave my body in supreme joy now, my mother in the form of my niece > entertaining me. In fact I gave a glimpse of leaving body to my brother's > family, they don't realize how lucky they are, I was totally aware, my > brother was sitting next to me with a dead pulse. He has forgotten it, how > my body was dead but how I was so alive. They are one hell of a lucky > family. I had practiced that earlier with my family and freaked my beloved > out, my roommate totally ran away and I haven't heard back from him > since..:-)..I actually thought I was dying, giving instructions on how to > dispose of my body, later realized those were just practice runs...:-). My > brother's family's one tough cookie - blessed and open minded. This has > enabled me to identify who are in tune with me, they laughed when I said I > was leaving my body, though in jest, half scared, I took it seriously and > stopped the experiments. But I know how to use it when needed. > > May be I'm finishing old stories and starting new stories, nothing and > everything makes sense.. > > How are our stories any worse that the ones you have here. Everyone has a > right to enjoy their stories including me. You can ignore it like I do > yours, I search for my name and only read and respond the emails that have > my first name in them..LOL.. > > The pun is on my family, they were supposed to take care of me, now I take > care of them. The whole world prays for me not realizing the irony of it. > Now they have forgotten, no one bothers to ask about me now, I do all the > work at the house with supreme joy and I forget the role I'm playing but I'm > reminded by everyone..soon enough.. > > Like I said this is just too much for your shukri brain to wrap around..so > just use technology to skip my posts.. > > > > On Wed, Jun 9, 2010 at 8:21 PM, shukra69 <shukr...@...> wrote: > > > > > > > your personality maturation is barely that of an adolescent, you need to > > get help (counselling) to learn how to deal with adulthood.People knowing > > your age are expecting you to think and act as an adult. I hope you can take > > that with some good humor and act constructively with that understanding. > > > > > > >
