--- In [email protected], Peter <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote:
> --- akasakasha <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote:
> 
> snip
> 
> > 
> > Peter then asks that I "Next time just call[him]
> > fuck-face and things
> > will be clearer for  all of us. My two main posts
> > were not hostile to
> > Peter. I thought they were collegial. He then finds
> > hostility and
> > phantom attackers somewhere in the written words, a
> > hostility
> > sufficient that one would call him a fuck face.
> > Huh???!!  Where does
> > this come from inside Peter?
> 
> Okay....I thought about this for awhile and I think I
> came upon why this is happening and this entire
> exchange demonstrates the point. 

While your points are well taken, below, I sugest there is a
additional factor contributing to the miscommunication. You did't read
the posts  -- you skimmed one and ignored the next, and appear not to
have read any of the prior posts in the thread.

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/message/64612
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/message/64654

In not reading the primary posts, to you the main point of the posts
was the "tacky" comment. To me, that was just a small aside, the major
points in the posts revolved around the theme of expectations,
judgement, judgemental views and an exploration of such.

Here are some excerpts from the posts that I thought had put things in
perspective -- that is, the "tacky" discussion was a small springboard
into the larger, more generalized theme of expectations, etc. 

----------------------

And I know Unc was making a joke [about "tacky"]. So we could just
laugh it off as not
relevant.

....

But hey, I know both Uncs and your comments were jokes. I can just
laugh. But they are helpful to me in tracing throught this odd little
thread in all of our lives called "expectations".

...

I was using the "tacky" statement just a springboard for discussion.
It in itself was not any great sin. But I do hold there is a useful
and instructive distinction between saying you don't care for
something (a judgement pertainng to your own decisions and actions --
which is fine),....
....

Well, again "tacky" was a starting example for discussion.

....

Again, I don't find your jokes as great sins against humanity. They
were springboards to explore a theme. You can make all the MMY jokes
you want, and I may laugh and get pulled into the monkey mind chatter.
Who knows. (who cares)

-----------------------------

>My words
> mean  one thing to her and something different to me.
> When I work with couples, this happhappens the time.
> The real mess starts if one or both people insist that
> the intent of their communication is the only meaning
> that occuoccurredis is what is happening between
> AkasAkasha myself.

 
> AkasAkashaat I see happening with the "tacky"
> communication is that you are teasing out all the
> possible logical implications of the communication: a
> quasi deconstruction. 

Again, this discussion in my view was not about "tacky" much at all. I
was using that as a juncture point to explore larger themes of
expecation and judgemental views -- the "tacky" comment being just one
small and insignificant example. You appear to be obsessed with the
idea that I was obsessed with the "tacky" discussion. Which side of
the fence is the obsession coming from?


> If this is done with any
> communication you end up with a welter of meanings
> that  will contradict one another in many instances.
> The intent of my "tacky" communication was not to
> insult the DimiDimickswever, it is quite easy to
> deconstruct the communication and logically arrive at
> the meaning both you and Judy came to.

Or it could be the first, common sense, common usage meaning that
first came to me when I saw the word in the context used. no bbig
fancy deconstruction necessary. I didn't go through any contortions to
get to my "connotation". It was the first, primary and fundamental
meaning to me from the start. I did recognize you were taking a
different slant on the word, and was sesnsitive to such, though a bit
baffled that you did not see how loaded and value-laden a word "tacky"
is in current ussage.


> What sticks in
> my craw is your privprivilegingr meaning over my
> intent and then ,it seems, insisting that this is the
> actual/real/true meaning of my communication. 

Well, you have got a phantom reptile stuck in your crawl. Its a shame
that you get so worked up by a snake that in reality is a harmless
rope. I never insisted that "this" is the actual/real/true meaning of
your communication. In this small side discussion of "tacky", a
tributary off the main point of the discussion, I was periodically 
trying if I could get you to see that the word "tacky" is a quite
loaded, value-laden word. 

> You then
> go on to question  why I'm saying "these things"-these
> things being the logical implication that now has been
> marked by you as the intent of my communication. 

Again, Peter, you are seeing phantom snakes here. You appear to have
let a molehill grow into a moutntain inside of you. 

> I try
> to say that I didn't mean that and you say that I did.

I tried to point out to you that your words have other powerful
connotations other than the one you have for it. 

> Obviously this is going to irritate me.

A mountain inside of me crawling with snakes would irritate me too.
But Peter, you created the mountain and you created the snakes. They
are not there on the written page.


> For example, I
> find many of your responses to me to be dripping in
> passive-aggressive sarcasm. To me you seem to be angry
> at me and waiting for any opportunity to discount me
> (thus the "fuck face" comment). 

Ah ah. I think we are finally getting to the heart of the issue. 

You appear to have an image of me, my motives, means and character,
set in your mind prior to reading my posts,You perhaps look for
interpretations of my words that fit your preconceived profile. When
you find several such interpreations that fit, perhaps the anger grows
in you because it becomes clearer in your mind how right your profile
is. But all the snakes ar just rope.

Perhaps read my post on this thread about this.
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/message/64676

some excerpts:
---------------------------------
I think at least part of the dynamic, ... [is] having a formation in
ones head prior
to or during an exchange, of where the other person is coming from,
what their assumptions, moods, understanding, knowledge, biases, SoC,
are, etc. Instead of just listening/reading the words as they ARE,
without preconceptions as to what the person means to say.

It means dropping past "ques" and clues one has built up about the
person and their behavior, motives, desires, etc. Who knows, maybe
they had a transformation last night and are a new person. It means no
"profiling" - which is another form of pre-judgement. That is, no
quickly sizing a person up as a certain type, and then reading them
from the standard characteristics of that type. It means dropping all
these things and simply listening/ reading what IS. And drawing NEW
conclusions, AFTER the exchange. Or simple drawing no conclusions.
That is, not making judgements when such do not pertain to personal
decisions one must make.

----------------------------

You know Peter, 2-3 years ago, I went through a period where my posts
had more of an edge, I used sarcasm to make points. I have lived in
various environments where sarcasm is the spirit of the day and in the
right context found it can be funny and instructive. And conducive to
lively banter. 

But one day, two years ago, you said directly to me in a post that my
sarcasm really peeved you and pissed you off. I stopped that day. In
two years, my posts to you, as far as I have intended have not had any
sarcasm. I am guessing here and may be wrong, but it appears perhaps
you are still stuck in your mindset about me and my posts as you were
2-3 years ago. That you continue with old outdated "profiles" about me
and these have clouded your vision and you are not seeing the actual
words on the page -- that their style and content have changed. Thats
why I think its improtant to drop all preconceptions about a person
when reading their words. Who knows, they might have been radically
transformed last night. Read the words, not past ghosts in your mind.

And to get away from being "profiled" is the raeson i have
occaisionally posted anonymously. There are lots of anonff's out there
so it forces a reader to drop preconceptions as to who the writer is
and to focus on their words. I remember you loudly protesting in
dismay about the many anonymoussff postings "why can't you guys sign a
name , even a fake one, this is so confusing, I can't tell who is
who". Perhaps that is instructive if indeed such feelings came from
the insecurity of not being able to profile a poster and prejudge
their angle, tone and motives prior to opening thier posts.



> You are flabbergasted
> at some of my responses to you. 

Yes, when there are no mountains or snakes on the written page and you
start angerly complaining about such, I am indeed flabbergasted.

> Well, that is what
> your responses initially mean to me. But when you
> state that you had no intention of insulting me and I
> re-read your post, then I understand, to a greater
> degree, the intention of your post.

So this supports the premise that its your preconcieved or at least
concurrent (to reading the posts) view of me and my motives etc that
influence how you interpret the words on the page. Why not start each
post with a clean slate, or even posit the best intentions to each
poster and see how your interpreations of thier posts may change. Way
less snakes snarling and hissing at you, I promise you.


> I still find the
> comments offending, but now I understand that your
> intent was not to insult me so I just chalk it up to
> miscmiscommunicationen this occurs between us or
> between anybody, the miscmiscommunications not lie in
> one person only ("...where does this come from inside
> Peter?") but is the result of the
> non-identical,assumptive or "meaning" generating world
> of both people. 

Yes. And with such understanding, one might avoid this huge detour
revolving around a small insignificant aprt of the thread (the "tacky
diversion), and allow all minds to focus on the really interesting
issues in the main part of the thread.






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