On Jul 25, 2011, at 8:14 AM, authfriend wrote: > --- In [email protected], Mark Landau <m@...> wrote > > I suspect your usefulness to others here has a long way to > go before it dwindles, but it's certainly your call. More > important is whether it's useful to yourself. > Thank you, we'll see. It definitely has been helpful, though it's taking far more of my time and energy than may be good for me. > > > But I really did have resistance to the flying. I think I > > was the last one in my group to start. I remember saying > > something like "Can you imagine angels doing this? This > > seems like it's more for monkeys." It seemed very > > undignified to me. > > Very unlikely on its face as a means to development of > consciousness, but obviously what happens "inside" is > of more significance than the outward appearance. > > Of course
> > But once I started I did have a lot of thrilling bliss with it. > > I took the flying block at MUM with my then-boyfriend. > Shortly after we began the actual practice, my boyfriend > started feeling utterly miserable physically and > psychically. He was told to stay in his room and given a > special program; his meals were brought to him. He never > told me what the program involved. The second day of this, > I paid him a (strictly verboten) visit. He looked > frighteningly haggard; he looked *dark*. I was worried > that the special program wasn't doing him any good. He > did tell me he hadn't done any hopping in the flying hall. > > But he stuck with it, and a few days later emerged > seemingly transformed. He went back to the flying hall, > started hopping almost immediately, and glowed with bliss > for the remainder of the course. > > Me, I started hopping the third or fourth day, with a > bit of insomnia the first couple of nights my only > negative experience. I certainly enjoyed it, but I > didn't have any bliss until years of regular practice > later. For me the benefits were and still are more in > daily life than in program. > > I suppose the bottom line is that we all get what we > need, one way or the other, and that it's folly to > judge our experiences by comparing them with those of > others. > > Thanks for this. I didn't have any symptoms. Just no impulse to hop and resistance to the outer seeming absurdity. >
